Basically czero is abt this high school whr all the boys fight to rule the school. Fight as in literal brutal force. It got me thinking, if I were to be in a school like that, in a fight like that, how would I fight? Honestly, there is not hundred percent guarantee but considerin the fact that I think I do crazy thgs under the influence of this chemical called adrenaline, I’d hate to imagine. I guess I’d go crazy, like total wild whackfest. The more pain I get from the injuries I sustain in the fight (it is inevitable in a fight isit? We are no manga characters), the harder my punches will be and I’d totally make sure the ppl I hit suffer, sick I knoe. I can totally see myself losin all senses.. mayb I’d be less destructive whn I am younger, I rmb wrestling with my older cuz. Back then twas still the blind punches but now I’d prolly really make sure my punches hit home. Of cos all these are just hypothetic, cos I think my kicks are pretty weak in reality, esp my left leg but I cant my right shud do some decent damage with all that muscles. Hahaha!

Still, I kinda envy the feel in the whole movie. I mean your normal girls might just go, “I cant understand what they are fightin for?!” but I’d say they are fightin for a very noble cause. It is appropriate cos they are still young, they are carryin the hopes of their comrades and many other ppl whn they fight. It is not just your childish lets fight cos you stared at me, WTF?! It has a purpose, on the shoulders of the ‘men’ (tho they are only say, 18?) are the dreams of many others. It may be a burden but it is also a very strong drivin force. The closest I can think of in real life is team sports. As a capt, you carry with you the responsibilities, the dream, hope and the trust your team mates entrust upon you. You not only mark you own opponent, you make sure your team mates are copin, you rush up to take knocks for them (who says ppl play clean sports), alws be the first to save balls from getting beyond the court if twas in your possession. The whole chemistry of a TEAM. I cant say we lay our lives dwn for each other but our bodies at least. The injuries sustained, the fall, the blood, the scars are all evidence of our sacrifices. Many of these stay with us till we lay six feet under but they are sweet sacrifices, for the memories are not sth anyone can rob you of.

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dont do it, pls dont.. you knoe i wont voice it out. i wont say anythg cos i dont knoe how to put them into words and it just isnt me. i dont believe in forcin thgs of this aspect. forget abt the 'accomodatin', 'adjustin' or 'adaptin'. tried, tested and failed. i am anal, i only want the best. mayb thats why the previous ones have failed thus far..

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i dont knoe if my temper has improved or many thgs doesnt matter anymore.. i'd rather be left alone than to suit others. whn i dont flare, it doesnt mean i am fine with it, i just cannot be bothered to make thgs more troublesome.

mayb there is a reason why my counsellors have alws pointed out that i am too sarcastic and arrogant. i mean at least i am myself in front of them but the comments that return really arent too nice.. sometimes i just dont feel like bein too nice, more often than not, the result of bein nice is just bein taken for granted. it really isnt worth it, is it? if thats the case, i'd rather be feared and unapproachable..

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