it is time like this that i realise that i am still but a kid incapable of accomplishin anythg by myself. it is times whn i make irrational decisions, choosin to be wilful and not considerin abt more impt thgs. it is times like this whn i feel like i cant handle my own emotions and end up hurtin myself that i feel like a kid.

still another one mth plus and the demon inside can be released, just that one mth plus more and i can just become me again.

i am totally losin patience with evrythg, evn with my dramas, i am totally skippin scenes just so that i can finish them faster, thgs aint lookin too bright in this case.

i realised i no longer speak with buffers. in the first place, do i even knoe what is buffers? i am SO straighforward, it is like automatic. whn i speak i am just simply blunt, words doesnt get processed in my brain, they just come out in a verbal regurgitation. ok, i DO feel bad if i hurt ppl in the process but close folks shud have gotten used to it, hafnt they? i'd love to have them be this straightforward with me, so i see no point in me actin all nice and dainty. i am me btw -.- but i will still try to kick the habit. tho i totally love dokkun, i dont needa become a docchan. hahaa! i'm gettin lame..

i didnt do the freakin trans and i've alr tried my best to not make it sound as broken, at the same time tryin to keep the meanin of the damn song..

Struggling
A day passed by
Screaming
A day passed by
Resisting
A day passed by
Shattering
A day passed by

To some extent if you understand,
How about wisening up a lil
Even though tempted by lowly others,
I will not get angry and make more enemies
I am like this because I am fearfully and restlessly searching for kind people

Do I have ambitions? Am I just? Do I have feelings? Do I have shame?
Unfortunately to this day, I'm still not a mature person. I'm still immature
Unfortunately to this day, I'm still not a mature person. I'm still immature

Overstraining
A day passed by
Agitated
A day passed by
Stubbornly
A day passed
Shattering
A day passed
Let me teach you how to lead
Even though tempted by lowly others
I would not get angry and vanish
I am like that because I am fearfully and restlessly searching for kind people

Do I have ambitions? Am I just? Do I have feelings? Do I have shame?
Unfortunately to this day, I'm still not a mature person. I'm still immature
Unfortunately to this day, I'm still not a mature person. I'm still immature
I am this rebellious because I am fearfully and restlessly searching for kind people

Labels: blunt, docchan, freedom, immature, impatience