Name: Monday, May 26, 2008
the forgotten
i think i'm seriously startin to forget how to blog. i kinda went on a hiatus cos i am on an all time low and i really dont fancy rantin at ppl on my blog, cos i'l be evn nastier not that i am all nice and sweet now. hehee!i've been eatin too much sweet stuffs lately! serious! and i think i am puttin on weight again! yabai! damn sian la! and i've alr got at least TWO ppl commentin on my fats, ok, enough ar. later i flare. hahaha! and fry yall with my pork oil. hahaha! i am like tryin to eat to fill up the feel of emptiness but not workin, it is backfirin! hahaha! -.-
i knoe i am supposed to upload many pics but lazy and i am SUPPOSED to be studyin for my damn geog travel test now! -.- tell me abt panickin. i am panicky but i am not doin anythg. how motivatin ya? just after png said i look damn hardworkin this sem, i am SO takin that as a praise and correctin him that last sem i WAS too! hahaa! mayb it is the havin a goal in mind thg, i have another 2yrs and many thgs hafta change in this 2yrs, manymany thgs..
i lost sth after i entered tp. now, i am facin the same decision.. to let go or to go for it.. it is alws easier to let go and take a step back but i am really wonderin if it is the right thg to do.. moreover, i cant be too pushy as well, i think it is damn irritatin. ugh~!
i hafta let this subside again. friendship can be a double-edged sword and cos of it, i alws hafta sacrifice this just for the friendship. either way it is not any less painful.. and this is the 4th time but well, i alws think it means sth... it does.. right?
Labels: emptiness, forgotten, goal, sacrifice
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