Name: ok, since i promised dicky to post the kurosagi pic, i better do it now before i forget abt it later..
i was watchin this particular drama before that stupid bean decided to maintain itself. it is a drama on sports, more like minidrama on track and soccer. it is more on track i guess, all that trainin.. gosh, my goosepimples all stood up.. the familiarity of the trainin, the wind gushin thru the runner's face and body, pure bliss! for me, runnin as in competitively requires me to really focus and to keep pushin. one slight distraction or weird thoughts runnin thru my brain, chances are i'd screw it. of cos, knowin me, i runnin better chasin after another person, more of another friend. i lack the determination for track.. something is just lackin. compared to netball, it is definitely more monotonous. it requires alot of self-motivation but i cant deny that i am startin to miss sports..
i watched the drama partly because ryo-chan's actin as well xP it's not uncommon to do so! serious! hahaha! oh, if you're gon ask what happened to all the tbaby craze, it's not gon, dont worry, still prefer tbaby more! hahaha! so if you're gon help me kidnap i wont mine tbaby but ryo-chan smaller, easier to hide. HAHAHA! crappish! it is just that cos tokio(the band tbaby's in)'s a more senior grp, there is not so much exposure. well, how do i put it.. they are still havin their singles and such, advertisements, yada yada but well, you get me, dont you?
and i got hooked on another of ryo-chan's song! it's called stereo, i guess i'm more hooked on the drums part. it is just your very basic hits but.. i just like it's rhythm.. and i think i managed to figure out the sequence of it somehow cos i think that was the basic drummin aloy taught me! eggcited!!! stupid, i got quite a few drummer friends and evrybod's willin to teach me but somehow after FOUR years! i still knoe nuts abt drummin, sad case! i had wanted to post a vid of the song here but on second thots, mayb not. i mean it's such a waste if nobod's gon appreciate it and it'd just further magnify my jap craziness, i knoe it is bad enough now but there are reasons why i am still indulge in it! i am not somebod who enjoys gettin hooked on sth thats gon affect myself adversely. i think only prolly dick understands, i hope bw does too! x))
somehow this post just gotta kinda emo.. rahh!` no gd!!! anw did i mention that it does get frustratin go thru the dict learnin new jap words?! cos there are like a lot of jap words which are direct translation of an english word! and i can end up learnin how to read english words in jap for almost half a page. i nearly flared. but it might just makin learnin easier? cos it is mostly words i alr knoe.. wells.
i needa slp early! [right, and i am still bloggin now..] my face is totally decomposin and recently i am just pinnin my fringe up cos it is too long to be left hangin anymore, i look like some messy, crazy woman!
Pieces of paper scattered all over the table,
Each and every one of them turns into my treasure,
for you scribble cute things on them.
Strange looking characters and portraits that don't do much justice.
Written in the pretty handwriting is your name,
and next to it is mine.
Your drawings aren't perfect,
but every one of them is dear to me.
How much capacity for me to take in everything?
How much space should I have in order to keep it all?
Am I sufficient right now?
I want to keep every single thing about us.
The figures left behind by each minute, each second.
Truth is, I want to be able to feel you on my left [side] all the time.
But you're not here,
so on lonely nights I try to make up for the empty space on my bed.
Like this.
Strumming my guitar, I turn my feelings into a melody…
That's always the case.
When you're not by my side,
I can't help but look for you.
My body remembers, reaching out for memories of you and going over them.
I want to be someone, who does not get influenced by anyone,
But right now I cannot put my money on it,
Because you live in my heart.
I'm sorry, but you're here, even now when I'm singing.
My head is full of thoughts of you.
And it would be great if it would change one day,
When one moment becomes forever…
Right now, the proof that you're one to two steps ahead of me,
Helps by breaking the growing silence.
You pretend to be amused listening to someone else's story,
But I want to continue seeing your smile so I swallow my words.
Am I naïve for wanting for more than I have now?
Are you going to suggest that I should be giving instead of receiving?
You can warn me that there is no such thing as forever,
But I want to shine with you,
Even if it's just for a moment.
I'll show you that I can protect every element that colors you.
I'll be by your side no matter what.
I will take away every little thing that saddens you,
So let this love last a little longer….
I built up my courage and said the words I could hold in no longer.
What was supposed to have been "I love you…"
Subconsciously, the command from my brain was altered into my very own code.
One day, will I be able to tell you my feelings with confidence?
Will I be able to stay as someone you are proud to call your own.
With you beside me,
I feel like anything is possible.
I'll send you my love…. ♥
Labels: decomposition, dick's kurosagi pic, stereo, stupid bean
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