Name: Sunday, March 30, 2008
wordy entry x)
met up with b today to cut her stupid fringe.. i think i am SO easy-goin whn it comes to cuttin hair. HAHAA! we talked abit abt stuffs, classmates, rui and what-nots. twas surprised at how open i am today, i was really tired.. i shut off by 3pm.. so i really cant rmb what happened but i knoe i went home with a smile listenin to 'zukkoke otokomichi'.
nene, honestly, i was shocked at how we actually think alike. SUGE~! also, i am just shocked at how calm i can handle certain situations. i am not becomin immune or whatsoever, not stoneded but more like i just wanna keep it inside and hope the magnitude of the emotion die down fast. thats all x))
basically, you can say i am a happy person and i really dont care what i really blog now, as in, at least they are honest words, from the bottom of my heart. of cos i knoe it is borin without pics but i really love expressin thgs in my own words tho lettin others infer from pics seem like a cool idea. still, loadin pics are so time-consumin! i'd rather spend the time video-ing. hehs!
atashi no tachi wa sekai ichiban, daisuki desu! xDD
song of the day =DD :
this song is really great cos if you noticed, i go for the 'conflict' in thgs and that seems like the concept of this song (from MY point of view). the tune and the way the singers sing it sounds UBER hyper and happy but if you actually read the lyrics, you'd find the song beautiful, at least i did. it really isnt easy singin such mengful lyrics in the those comical tone. for one, i think it take more efforts and energy to act funny than cool.
Sadness and worries
It seems that everyone has at least some of them
It seems that everyone has at least some of them
With a depressed face, you sigh again
Sadness and loneliness, you face it and live on
It’s not just you, you know
If that is a good explanation, it’s enough
To do your best, that single phrase
Doesn’t it make your life harder?
Yay!
If I laugh
You will laugh, so
If you laugh
Someone else will laugh too, you know
Giggles x4
Ahaha ahaha
Wahaha wahaha
This is fun~
Just like your yawn passes on to me
That smiling face ties us together too, I think
I have a hunch that I will make it
It’s not a big deal though
If I laugh
You will laugh, so
If you laugh
Someone else will laugh too, you know
It would be great if all sadness disappeared
It would be nice~
I want it to be a happy heartbeat
If I laugh
You will laugh, so
If you laugh
Someone else will laugh too, you know
Like that clear blue in the sky
It would be great if all sadness disappeared
It would be nice~
Giggles x4
Ahaha ahaha
Wahaha wahaha
also, this hols i am happier =DD still bothered by many trivial issues but at least i have enough energy, courage or whatsoever to smile and be happy! but.. the work hard part is sure lackin this hols yo. i mean if before hols i put in say.. 30% effort into livin my life, this hols it sure dropped drastically to 15%.. still, i will buck up ne! wuush! x j
Labels: b's haircut, buck up, calm, friends, happygirl, wahaha
2:21 AM
Friday, March 28, 2008
lost
it is not the first time but the feelin of wantin to tell of a feelin but cant find someone to tell. this feelin sucks. it's as if you cant tell others cos they either get shocked at how different you are from their impression or they worry unduly.. still, the action that resulted in me feelin so down is the worst of all these. it need not have been this way but since it happened, i guess there shud be an end to all these emotions, lockin evrythg away.
the last time i actually felt so bad was sec3 end and thgs started goin downhill for us. of cos, how it ended we all knoe.. mayb it is me but it sure doesnt matter now. nothing lasts forever, at the end of the day, we are only responsible for ourselves.
i am really in no mood to like post pics today, i'd prolly spam another day :))
and yes, today i was still VERY happy to meet up with dicks, had my hair cut. tho i seriously think i am gon have some serious prob with my hair come school reopen but heck it. love how we laughed all the way back to my hse. hahaa! nearly runnin dwn an (amk) uncle or two. it is not that her drivin sucks but the main thing lies in it is an AMK uncle. HAHAHA! :DD
song of the day:
Labels: amk uncle, cut hair, dicks, forget, let go, planetarium
1:14 AM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
saturated
alot of thoughts, feelings, ideas, etc. runnin thru my head. it's kinda difficult to put evrythg down in words but there are just so many things happenin inside.
my blogskin's a BIG headache by itself but i cant find anythg better.. if this goes on, mayb i'l just try changin site.. the problem arises cos i insist on havin the music link but the recent skins are all full of navigations, which mean i cant get the song to auto play durin my posts. comin to think of it now.. it might be a gd idea, then evrytime i can insert a new song in every post =))
like i said, my brain is like horribly saturated now. there are so many issues that i am reflectin abt, issues that may not even be close to my life, issues that are trivial, serious, simply everything.. many of them i dont knoe how to 'pen' it out, others, they are not suitable to be posted on a blog, at least not this.
also, at this stage, i cannot say for sure if i can kick the habit of watchin videos.. or the constant thots of wantin to get home to watch the videos at night.. i'm actually bloggin now cos i am watitin for the video to load, basically now my life resolve ard video-ing. cheers.
but one thing for sure, i hate the feelin of doin the opposite of what your heart wants you to..
met up with the groupies today, shall upload the pics another day, i am really drained today.. we talked abt some stuff as usual and our meetups are ALWS filled with laughters, every single moment and it's genuine laughters, thats what makes it special =)) and we kinda came to a conclusion that no matter how brave or strong a girl is, when she really falls in love, she'l become weak and dependent..
my blogskin's a BIG headache by itself but i cant find anythg better.. if this goes on, mayb i'l just try changin site.. the problem arises cos i insist on havin the music link but the recent skins are all full of navigations, which mean i cant get the song to auto play durin my posts. comin to think of it now.. it might be a gd idea, then evrytime i can insert a new song in every post =))
like i said, my brain is like horribly saturated now. there are so many issues that i am reflectin abt, issues that may not even be close to my life, issues that are trivial, serious, simply everything.. many of them i dont knoe how to 'pen' it out, others, they are not suitable to be posted on a blog, at least not this.
also, at this stage, i cannot say for sure if i can kick the habit of watchin videos.. or the constant thots of wantin to get home to watch the videos at night.. i'm actually bloggin now cos i am watitin for the video to load, basically now my life resolve ard video-ing. cheers.
but one thing for sure, i hate the feelin of doin the opposite of what your heart wants you to..
met up with the groupies today, shall upload the pics another day, i am really drained today.. we talked abt some stuff as usual and our meetups are ALWS filled with laughters, every single moment and it's genuine laughters, thats what makes it special =)) and we kinda came to a conclusion that no matter how brave or strong a girl is, when she really falls in love, she'l become weak and dependent..
Labels: blogskin, girls and relationship, issues, video-ing
2:46 AM
Monday, March 24, 2008
frustratin~!
this is bloody irritatin, i really have no idea why in the world my internet connection suddenly got turtle slow! i swear, it is totally NOT loadin at all. God knoes whats the reason for that.. all i am hopin for is that the situation'd get better on fri since my connection's supposed to get faster by fri.oh, and i think i better mention. one of my hp's bein cranky, actually, BOTH. i seriously think it might be because i am droppin them too much. yep, so if i am not replyin or etc, my hp's NOT functionin. sorry~ mayb it is just time to start huntin for another hp. hoho! i am lookin for flip, slim ones but lookin at the market now.. it is not very possible aight?
ok, i really dont have anythg much to blog abt anw.. unless puttin evrythg dwn in words here will make my secret desires come thru.. if not, ja ne.
Labels: hp dwn, irritatin connection, new phone
2:18 AM
Friday, March 21, 2008
marathon.
well, since i am waitin for my show to finish loadin, which is takin UBER long.. i decided to post again. honestly, i am missin the feel of x-ctry run.. the feel of runnin alone, yet, not quite alone just feels heavenly but at the same time is the worst feelin in the world. to go on runnin, you'l feel drained out but to stop, you'd immediately feel the weariness takin a toll on your whole body. the fight to keep goin and constantly fight the thot of givin up just wears one dwn badly.however, the feel of competition is just great, fightin another person but not hurtin him/her physical. competin to see who is stronger both physically and mentally. i am not one who'd compete unless i am confident of myself. of cos, i have ran feelin nervous and unsure of myself but honestly, i hafnt lost before x) hafnt lost to myself, just yet. i might have regrets after a race but i alws knoe i've given my all. thats prolly the few times whn i'd push to my max.
wont forget the macritchie runs, the start, the process, the irritatin passin vehicles, the stubborn person in me who refuses to lose out, havin to calculate just how much i can push and accelerate, the endin sprint, the expressway that never seems to end, the cheerin crowd, familiar faces, the final line, the end, the drained out body that collapses and endearin seniors/friends who'd help me register, the satisfaction, the exhausted body, the sense of achievement. evrythg, all in all, that is prolly totally worth the nervousness i get beforehand. i WANT to run, i NEED to run but at current stage, i just cant, cos i'd just end up bein very disappointed in myself. i expect too much from my own timin.
the first time i ran for my x-ctry, not national of cos, i am not that gd yet yo.. twas cedar's i set my own standard and i really dont want it goin anymore lower than i had before but i really lack the trainin now. damn, i really hate it..
it really feels great now that i can blog freely, ignorin what others would think, read and infere from my blog. in fact, i am just bloggin directly from the thots in my mind so if i actually sounded cocky, seriously, too bad..
my hand still smells of the sticks. SHIAT!
Labels: confidence, expectation, stick, the run, x-ctry
3:14 AM
babysis
just had this SUPER long talk with my sis over the japanese entertainment and we were like comparin how much we were spendin on all these celebrities.. final conclusion? mine was more worth it.. i mean, there was more to my spendin and i was explainin to her the reasons behind it.. that kid actually listened and started discussin with me the lives of these idols, the facade and the irony behind 'their' lives that need not belong to them anymore.. well, babysis has grown up, hasnt she? and all these started from sky of love -.-well, cheers for sisterly love, lets all forget abt the bitchy times for the time bein.. i am SO confident of convertin her to a je fan. wahaha! i mean, from sky of love we sidetracked to je cos she said pi was hot! well, it's yamapi we're talkin abt yeah. hahaha! cos i was walkin kuro and that lil one peeped. hahaa! so i was tellin her he is one of the rare few jes that you'd see and go, "hey, thats a hottie". surprise surprise, i showed her my k8 calendar and she said ryo-chan's hot! =DDD it must be the black and white effect of the pic, not that ryo-chan's not hot enough but i sure wont expect anybod to say he's hot at the first look, cos i didnt =X
we talked abt utahime also, some show w tomo and surprisingly she understood the emotion i was tryin to tell her, tho not fully but she got the gist.. she ended up tellin me some stupid love letter thg in her school. well, those gd old days spent in sec school's sth far beyond my reach now but it's cool to be hearin thgs that i've went thru w my friends before happenin to my sis. i dont knoe how much she knoes or her idea of love. i mean she is sec 4 and what she is goin thru in a mixed school is definitely different from what i went thru in cedar, so whn we touch on the topic love, i am still very cautious.. but i'd love to watch the girl cry durin love shows.. we are alike in this sense, we hate to watch love shows at home cos we dont wanna cry in the 'open'. as in right in the face of our family members. hahaha! for one, we are TOTALLY different from mommy dear. hahaaa!
Labels: family, k8, love, pi, sisterly
1:43 AM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
links
as it cant be seen, i have finally got my big fat ass away from drama-ing and changed my blogskin FINALLY. evrythg's nice and i really feel like a genius for bein able to make the changes to the skins to my own preferences cos the original skin is really not like that.. ok, it doesnt have THAT much of differences but for me to make this much of changes is a big, BIG thg. anw, evrythg's perfect except for the links part.. i'd need folks to start floodin in your links. thanks!! =DDDLabels: blog links
12:51 AM
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
met up with the rest
Labels: happy day
11:08 PM
wahaha
Sadness and worries
It seems that everyone has at least some of them
With a depressed face, you sigh again
Sadness and loneliness, you embrace them and live on
It's not just you, you know
If that is a good explanation, it's enough
To do your best, that single phrase
Doesn't it make your life harder?
Yay
If I laugh
You will laugh, so
If you laugh
Someone else will laugh too, you know
Keta keta keta keta
Ahaha ahaha
Wahaha wahaha
This is fun~~
Just like your yawn passes on to me
That smiling face ties us together too, I think
I have a hunch that I will make it I have a hunch that I will make it
It's not a big deal though
If I laugh
You will laugh, so
If you laugh
Someone else will laugh too, you know
Like those clouds up in the sky
It would be great if all sadness disappeared
It would be nice
Even when you force yourself to laugh
Even if you are laughed at and told it is meaningless
If you can laugh at them
Then they will run and disappear
I make up my mind in this chest, saying I will survive
The sound that makes me stand now
It's not sadness or hatred
I want it to be a happy heartbeat
If I laugh
You will laugh, so
If you laugh
Someone else will laugh too, you know
Like that clear blue in the sky
It would be great if all sadness disappeared
It would be nice
Keta keta keta keta
Ahaha ahaha
Wahaha wahaha
i just thot the lyrics were great, to make evryday's unhappiness sound so light-hearted and.. happy? just by listenin to the song, you sure wont be able to tell that it is a song with sucha 'serious' meanin behind it.. you might just be able to spot some hints in the pv but definitely not the song itself. i just love listenin to the song just before i go to bed or whn i am feelin really dwn.. the rhythm and all just cheers me up a lil, coupled with the 'meaninful' lyrics, perfect!
nobody'd expect bein a happy person to be sucha uphill task.
dont lie, never ever do that cos i cant take it and i'd really hate to be on the receivin end of it. i am very selfish, very very selfish. i cant promise to alws be there for you or solve all your probs but once you ask for it, i will almost definitely do my best. it's just like the quote in the show, "ask and it will be given". i cant explain how selfish i can get but the whole time i am actually reflectin on all my acts, selfish is the only word to explain it.
i hate to share my best friend. of cos it is fine to share best friends amongst best friends but anythg more than that is unacceptable. i am wilful and selfish, i get angry really easily but i dislike showin it. this'd simply result in me compilin all the grudges, unhappiness and there really is no tellin to whn i'd flare and give up on a friendship. sadly, that is how i work, it's the same way with relationship, once i give it up, we'l revert back to normal friends, we may not evn be best of friends. i dont even knoe what am i blabberin abt now.
mean ppl sucks! mean ppl sucks! seriously.. in the process of bein mean, they are inflictin pain on themselves, it's totally unworth the efforts..
nights
It seems that everyone has at least some of them
With a depressed face, you sigh again
Sadness and loneliness, you embrace them and live on
It's not just you, you know
If that is a good explanation, it's enough
To do your best, that single phrase
Doesn't it make your life harder?
Yay
If I laugh
You will laugh, so
If you laugh
Someone else will laugh too, you know
Keta keta keta keta
Ahaha ahaha
Wahaha wahaha
This is fun~~
Just like your yawn passes on to me
That smiling face ties us together too, I think
I have a hunch that I will make it I have a hunch that I will make it
It's not a big deal though
If I laugh
You will laugh, so
If you laugh
Someone else will laugh too, you know
Like those clouds up in the sky
It would be great if all sadness disappeared
It would be nice
Even when you force yourself to laugh
Even if you are laughed at and told it is meaningless
If you can laugh at them
Then they will run and disappear
I make up my mind in this chest, saying I will survive
The sound that makes me stand now
It's not sadness or hatred
I want it to be a happy heartbeat
If I laugh
You will laugh, so
If you laugh
Someone else will laugh too, you know
Like that clear blue in the sky
It would be great if all sadness disappeared
It would be nice
Keta keta keta keta
Ahaha ahaha
Wahaha wahaha
i just thot the lyrics were great, to make evryday's unhappiness sound so light-hearted and.. happy? just by listenin to the song, you sure wont be able to tell that it is a song with sucha 'serious' meanin behind it.. you might just be able to spot some hints in the pv but definitely not the song itself. i just love listenin to the song just before i go to bed or whn i am feelin really dwn.. the rhythm and all just cheers me up a lil, coupled with the 'meaninful' lyrics, perfect!
nobody'd expect bein a happy person to be sucha uphill task.
dont lie, never ever do that cos i cant take it and i'd really hate to be on the receivin end of it. i am very selfish, very very selfish. i cant promise to alws be there for you or solve all your probs but once you ask for it, i will almost definitely do my best. it's just like the quote in the show, "ask and it will be given". i cant explain how selfish i can get but the whole time i am actually reflectin on all my acts, selfish is the only word to explain it.
i hate to share my best friend. of cos it is fine to share best friends amongst best friends but anythg more than that is unacceptable. i am wilful and selfish, i get angry really easily but i dislike showin it. this'd simply result in me compilin all the grudges, unhappiness and there really is no tellin to whn i'd flare and give up on a friendship. sadly, that is how i work, it's the same way with relationship, once i give it up, we'l revert back to normal friends, we may not evn be best of friends. i dont even knoe what am i blabberin abt now.
mean ppl sucks! mean ppl sucks! seriously.. in the process of bein mean, they are inflictin pain on themselves, it's totally unworth the efforts..
nights
Labels: happiness, meanies, selfish, wahaha
2:31 AM
Sunday, March 16, 2008
TP Dance
basically was a day of runnin ard, just to get D's bday present and endin with the TP Dance Concert.. the photos are all jumbled up, coupled with a few 'ho pics durin the interval..
these are some of the photos from first half of the concert but i kinda set the cam to the wrong mood so they were kinda blur-ish. i dont have pics from the second half cos i was takin the videos instead.
i cant rmb what i had intended to blog ytd, will prolly combine the entries whn i can finally open my bitchy words.
hols was basically a time for me to totally video like MAD! i have almost completed all the dramas i can basically get my hands on.. i am still lookin to get my hands on kurosagi..!
i'm really not sure isit me or the dramas that i am watchin. basically i can be bawlin on and off watchin these dramas! mad! and i literally mean bawl.. somehow i just cry like a big baby throwin tantrum.. imagine! actually, it's better not to.
i mean what am i to do? oe of the mini-drama was on teamspirit, which is a total killer for me.. the training they supposedly go thru and all, the feelin on a baton hittin one's hand (10x50), the beach runs (nball), the decision between friendship and victory, THE moment right after the race, evrythg.. my heart simply stopped evrytime they were havin their race cos i gotta admit the editor/director/whosoever did an uber gd job in portrayin the races. i dont knoe abt others but i especially love scenes whrby they show the process of a sport in detail. the drama had slowmo-ed scenes whn they were passin the batons, the overtakin, the final stretch of the 4by1. i noticed that it seems, something i've observed, that guys' 4by1 relay's alws seems to be more excitin and closely matched compared to the women's. that kinda adrenaline flow just makes me suspect that i have WEAK heart!
alright, mayb the cast look totally unappealin, ZETTAI~ ugly but the whole kick from their filmin of the track scenes are HOT! with the blue track, evrythg blue.. gosh, as much as i am concerned, blue equates to school colour, school spirit (cedar, cj). the familiar cries of cheerin durin impt moments, the "FIGHTO! FIGHTO!", just sounds so inspire, like how we used to shout "FIRE! the FIRE!" codes that only we understood, words only we felt for.. oouuu.. old school.. i left cedar for FOUR years alr! unbelievable -.-
the other drama was kinda like your typical love story.. but who says one cant cry over your typical love story, whats more, bawl over it. hahaha! the lead lost memory due to war, falls in love with a girl almost ten yrs younger. well, not surprisin since they practically live under the same roof, they do.
just whn evrythg's fine and goin smoothly, the leads fallin in love.. yes, you got it, the WIFE appeared, wife from the time before lead lost his memory.. blahh.. what follows is definitely gon be heart-wrenchin and i dont have the courage to watch on, how wimp!
i dont knoe how it happened but i've become sucha crybaby, i cry over evrythg!, in the drama that is. in real life i can still control pretty well. i rmb i nv did shed a tear whn i watched sad shows.. i guess it all started with autumn in my heart, the qiutiandetonghua.. the pioneer of tearjerkers. hahaa! still rmb the classic o~ppa~!? hahaha! i only watched the cryin parts then cudnt stadn the long-windedness and how evrybod died in the end. die from gettin banged by truck. gosh...
alright, i kinda rmb i wanted to blog on ppl.. cant really rmb what i wanted to blog on. well, you see, i alws wanna blog on thgs that i am thinkin while i am travellin or walkin but am too lazy to whip out my hp or notebk to jot dwn what i wanna write abt..
i knoe there's sth abt me bein grateful for the friends that i have so far.. nigger, moozy (different from maozee), the bangla, scooby, huey, love, kor, bw, b and.. and.. and i really cant rmb.. well, there are more guys amg but thats the beauty of it. we cant stay angry at each other for long, we see two sides of a situation, we learn to accept each others' difference. like how i have to learn that they can be sensitive but at the same time, super prone to goin overboard. mayb put it simple, i love how our friendships are kept simple with minimal politics and maximal protection. evrybod tryin to do their part to protect and prevent another from gettin hurt. at times of needs, you'l alws find the shoulder or the support you need. isnt this kinda friendships just amazin and precious? company is literally one phone call or a msg away, there'd be no questions asked as to why you failed to contact them all these time, just a simple 'i was really caught up with school' or whatsoever reason that is nth but the truth is sufficient. we dont have to msg each other 24/7, just a random msg from time to time to show that we still rmb each other, thats enough. yet, we are definitely not to take each other for granted.. like duh! they'd be no, why are you so.. 'like that?' or 'you shudnt do this! what would others think of us' but instead the frequent concern for each other.
of cos there are the ppl that i can have h2h talk to. we dont have to be close friends but ppl who happen to sddnly clique on the same frequency, thats all that matters.
ok, i totally dont knoe whr this post is goin anymore but i will prolly blog proper abt my friends in another post cos i really really needa go back to my drama. well then, ja na!
these are some of the photos from first half of the concert but i kinda set the cam to the wrong mood so they were kinda blur-ish. i dont have pics from the second half cos i was takin the videos instead.
i cant rmb what i had intended to blog ytd, will prolly combine the entries whn i can finally open my bitchy words.
hols was basically a time for me to totally video like MAD! i have almost completed all the dramas i can basically get my hands on.. i am still lookin to get my hands on kurosagi..!
i'm really not sure isit me or the dramas that i am watchin. basically i can be bawlin on and off watchin these dramas! mad! and i literally mean bawl.. somehow i just cry like a big baby throwin tantrum.. imagine! actually, it's better not to.
i mean what am i to do? oe of the mini-drama was on teamspirit, which is a total killer for me.. the training they supposedly go thru and all, the feelin on a baton hittin one's hand (10x50), the beach runs (nball), the decision between friendship and victory, THE moment right after the race, evrythg.. my heart simply stopped evrytime they were havin their race cos i gotta admit the editor/director/whosoever did an uber gd job in portrayin the races. i dont knoe abt others but i especially love scenes whrby they show the process of a sport in detail. the drama had slowmo-ed scenes whn they were passin the batons, the overtakin, the final stretch of the 4by1. i noticed that it seems, something i've observed, that guys' 4by1 relay's alws seems to be more excitin and closely matched compared to the women's. that kinda adrenaline flow just makes me suspect that i have WEAK heart!
alright, mayb the cast look totally unappealin, ZETTAI~ ugly but the whole kick from their filmin of the track scenes are HOT! with the blue track, evrythg blue.. gosh, as much as i am concerned, blue equates to school colour, school spirit (cedar, cj). the familiar cries of cheerin durin impt moments, the "FIGHTO! FIGHTO!", just sounds so inspire, like how we used to shout "FIRE! the FIRE!" codes that only we understood, words only we felt for.. oouuu.. old school.. i left cedar for FOUR years alr! unbelievable -.-
the other drama was kinda like your typical love story.. but who says one cant cry over your typical love story, whats more, bawl over it. hahaha! the lead lost memory due to war, falls in love with a girl almost ten yrs younger. well, not surprisin since they practically live under the same roof, they do.
just whn evrythg's fine and goin smoothly, the leads fallin in love.. yes, you got it, the WIFE appeared, wife from the time before lead lost his memory.. blahh.. what follows is definitely gon be heart-wrenchin and i dont have the courage to watch on, how wimp!
i dont knoe how it happened but i've become sucha crybaby, i cry over evrythg!, in the drama that is. in real life i can still control pretty well. i rmb i nv did shed a tear whn i watched sad shows.. i guess it all started with autumn in my heart, the qiutiandetonghua.. the pioneer of tearjerkers. hahaa! still rmb the classic o~ppa~!? hahaha! i only watched the cryin parts then cudnt stadn the long-windedness and how evrybod died in the end. die from gettin banged by truck. gosh...
alright, i kinda rmb i wanted to blog on ppl.. cant really rmb what i wanted to blog on. well, you see, i alws wanna blog on thgs that i am thinkin while i am travellin or walkin but am too lazy to whip out my hp or notebk to jot dwn what i wanna write abt..
i knoe there's sth abt me bein grateful for the friends that i have so far.. nigger, moozy (different from maozee), the bangla, scooby, huey, love, kor, bw, b and.. and.. and i really cant rmb.. well, there are more guys amg but thats the beauty of it. we cant stay angry at each other for long, we see two sides of a situation, we learn to accept each others' difference. like how i have to learn that they can be sensitive but at the same time, super prone to goin overboard. mayb put it simple, i love how our friendships are kept simple with minimal politics and maximal protection. evrybod tryin to do their part to protect and prevent another from gettin hurt. at times of needs, you'l alws find the shoulder or the support you need. isnt this kinda friendships just amazin and precious? company is literally one phone call or a msg away, there'd be no questions asked as to why you failed to contact them all these time, just a simple 'i was really caught up with school' or whatsoever reason that is nth but the truth is sufficient. we dont have to msg each other 24/7, just a random msg from time to time to show that we still rmb each other, thats enough. yet, we are definitely not to take each other for granted.. like duh! they'd be no, why are you so.. 'like that?' or 'you shudnt do this! what would others think of us' but instead the frequent concern for each other.
of cos there are the ppl that i can have h2h talk to. we dont have to be close friends but ppl who happen to sddnly clique on the same frequency, thats all that matters.
ok, i totally dont knoe whr this post is goin anymore but i will prolly blog proper abt my friends in another post cos i really really needa go back to my drama. well then, ja na!
Labels: no direction, no link, nth in mind, TP Dance
11:06 AM
Saturday, March 15, 2008
summarised
late
need slp
no time blog
summarise
utahime
heartbreak
jingle
taro-to-suzu tarotaro rinrinrin
isshun no kaze ni nare
tuition
present
dance
late
slp
drama
hack
nigger
longer post
jot dwn
zombified
wind
breeze
bliss
enjoy
tanoshikatta
gohan
food
shoppin
caps
shades
leather jacket
scarfs
bakayaro
random
-owari-
need slp
no time blog
summarise
utahime
heartbreak
jingle
taro-to-suzu tarotaro rinrinrin
isshun no kaze ni nare
tuition
present
dance
late
slp
drama
hack
nigger
longer post
jot dwn
zombified
wind
breeze
bliss
enjoy
tanoshikatta
gohan
food
shoppin
caps
shades
leather jacket
scarfs
bakayaro
random
-owari-
Labels: summarised
3:20 AM
Friday, March 14, 2008
bitchy tudou
stupid bean!!! maintain what rubbish! cant they freakin maintain at 4am?! this is horribly bad.. i am so reliant on one site and i actually think that is bad cos if situations like this happen more often and i am dead.. i think i shud just brush up on my jap just so i can rely lesser on subs as well.. i am practically readin my jap-el dictionary like a bk, thats kinda funny.
ok, since i promised dicky to post the kurosagi pic, i better do it now before i forget abt it later..
ok, since i promised dicky to post the kurosagi pic, i better do it now before i forget abt it later..
ok, dicks, it's done!!! =DD sorry this pic totally dont do justice to the original. i swear it is SO glossy and 'real' that whn i opened i was like HEH!?
i was watchin this particular drama before that stupid bean decided to maintain itself. it is a drama on sports, more like minidrama on track and soccer. it is more on track i guess, all that trainin.. gosh, my goosepimples all stood up.. the familiarity of the trainin, the wind gushin thru the runner's face and body, pure bliss! for me, runnin as in competitively requires me to really focus and to keep pushin. one slight distraction or weird thoughts runnin thru my brain, chances are i'd screw it. of cos, knowin me, i runnin better chasin after another person, more of another friend. i lack the determination for track.. something is just lackin. compared to netball, it is definitely more monotonous. it requires alot of self-motivation but i cant deny that i am startin to miss sports..
i watched the drama partly because ryo-chan's actin as well xP it's not uncommon to do so! serious! hahaha! oh, if you're gon ask what happened to all the tbaby craze, it's not gon, dont worry, still prefer tbaby more! hahaha! so if you're gon help me kidnap i wont mine tbaby but ryo-chan smaller, easier to hide. HAHAHA! crappish! it is just that cos tokio(the band tbaby's in)'s a more senior grp, there is not so much exposure. well, how do i put it.. they are still havin their singles and such, advertisements, yada yada but well, you get me, dont you?
and i got hooked on another of ryo-chan's song! it's called stereo, i guess i'm more hooked on the drums part. it is just your very basic hits but.. i just like it's rhythm.. and i think i managed to figure out the sequence of it somehow cos i think that was the basic drummin aloy taught me! eggcited!!! stupid, i got quite a few drummer friends and evrybod's willin to teach me but somehow after FOUR years! i still knoe nuts abt drummin, sad case! i had wanted to post a vid of the song here but on second thots, mayb not. i mean it's such a waste if nobod's gon appreciate it and it'd just further magnify my jap craziness, i knoe it is bad enough now but there are reasons why i am still indulge in it! i am not somebod who enjoys gettin hooked on sth thats gon affect myself adversely. i think only prolly dick understands, i hope bw does too! x))
somehow this post just gotta kinda emo.. rahh!` no gd!!! anw did i mention that it does get frustratin go thru the dict learnin new jap words?! cos there are like a lot of jap words which are direct translation of an english word! and i can end up learnin how to read english words in jap for almost half a page. i nearly flared. but it might just makin learnin easier? cos it is mostly words i alr knoe.. wells.
i needa slp early! [right, and i am still bloggin now..] my face is totally decomposin and recently i am just pinnin my fringe up cos it is too long to be left hangin anymore, i look like some messy, crazy woman!
Pieces of paper scattered all over the table,
Each and every one of them turns into my treasure,
for you scribble cute things on them.
Strange looking characters and portraits that don't do much justice.
Written in the pretty handwriting is your name,
and next to it is mine.
Your drawings aren't perfect,
but every one of them is dear to me.
i was watchin this particular drama before that stupid bean decided to maintain itself. it is a drama on sports, more like minidrama on track and soccer. it is more on track i guess, all that trainin.. gosh, my goosepimples all stood up.. the familiarity of the trainin, the wind gushin thru the runner's face and body, pure bliss! for me, runnin as in competitively requires me to really focus and to keep pushin. one slight distraction or weird thoughts runnin thru my brain, chances are i'd screw it. of cos, knowin me, i runnin better chasin after another person, more of another friend. i lack the determination for track.. something is just lackin. compared to netball, it is definitely more monotonous. it requires alot of self-motivation but i cant deny that i am startin to miss sports..
i watched the drama partly because ryo-chan's actin as well xP it's not uncommon to do so! serious! hahaha! oh, if you're gon ask what happened to all the tbaby craze, it's not gon, dont worry, still prefer tbaby more! hahaha! so if you're gon help me kidnap i wont mine tbaby but ryo-chan smaller, easier to hide. HAHAHA! crappish! it is just that cos tokio(the band tbaby's in)'s a more senior grp, there is not so much exposure. well, how do i put it.. they are still havin their singles and such, advertisements, yada yada but well, you get me, dont you?
and i got hooked on another of ryo-chan's song! it's called stereo, i guess i'm more hooked on the drums part. it is just your very basic hits but.. i just like it's rhythm.. and i think i managed to figure out the sequence of it somehow cos i think that was the basic drummin aloy taught me! eggcited!!! stupid, i got quite a few drummer friends and evrybod's willin to teach me but somehow after FOUR years! i still knoe nuts abt drummin, sad case! i had wanted to post a vid of the song here but on second thots, mayb not. i mean it's such a waste if nobod's gon appreciate it and it'd just further magnify my jap craziness, i knoe it is bad enough now but there are reasons why i am still indulge in it! i am not somebod who enjoys gettin hooked on sth thats gon affect myself adversely. i think only prolly dick understands, i hope bw does too! x))
somehow this post just gotta kinda emo.. rahh!` no gd!!! anw did i mention that it does get frustratin go thru the dict learnin new jap words?! cos there are like a lot of jap words which are direct translation of an english word! and i can end up learnin how to read english words in jap for almost half a page. i nearly flared. but it might just makin learnin easier? cos it is mostly words i alr knoe.. wells.
i needa slp early! [right, and i am still bloggin now..] my face is totally decomposin and recently i am just pinnin my fringe up cos it is too long to be left hangin anymore, i look like some messy, crazy woman!
Pieces of paper scattered all over the table,
Each and every one of them turns into my treasure,
for you scribble cute things on them.
Strange looking characters and portraits that don't do much justice.
Written in the pretty handwriting is your name,
and next to it is mine.
Your drawings aren't perfect,
but every one of them is dear to me.
How much capacity for me to take in everything?
How much space should I have in order to keep it all?
Am I sufficient right now?
I want to keep every single thing about us.
The figures left behind by each minute, each second.
Truth is, I want to be able to feel you on my left [side] all the time.
But you're not here,
so on lonely nights I try to make up for the empty space on my bed.
Like this.
Strumming my guitar, I turn my feelings into a melody…
That's always the case.
When you're not by my side,
I can't help but look for you.
My body remembers, reaching out for memories of you and going over them.
I want to be someone, who does not get influenced by anyone,
But right now I cannot put my money on it,
Because you live in my heart.
I'm sorry, but you're here, even now when I'm singing.
My head is full of thoughts of you.
And it would be great if it would change one day,
When one moment becomes forever…
Right now, the proof that you're one to two steps ahead of me,
Helps by breaking the growing silence.
You pretend to be amused listening to someone else's story,
But I want to continue seeing your smile so I swallow my words.
Am I naïve for wanting for more than I have now?
Are you going to suggest that I should be giving instead of receiving?
You can warn me that there is no such thing as forever,
But I want to shine with you,
Even if it's just for a moment.
I'll show you that I can protect every element that colors you.
I'll be by your side no matter what.
I will take away every little thing that saddens you,
So let this love last a little longer….
I built up my courage and said the words I could hold in no longer.
What was supposed to have been "I love you…"
Subconsciously, the command from my brain was altered into my very own code.
One day, will I be able to tell you my feelings with confidence?
Will I be able to stay as someone you are proud to call your own.
With you beside me,
I feel like anything is possible.
I'll send you my love…. ♥
Labels: decomposition, dick's kurosagi pic, stereo, stupid bean
1:57 AM
Thursday, March 13, 2008
open wound
i peeled off the heelin scarp accidentally. a healin wound that has started to bleed profusely once again.bad day
late
lack of spirit
emoness overload
impracticality
brain overload
jam
i still choke whn i talk of the past
wasureru
cant bear to think back
tsuranukumasu
lack of courage
sms
mass
uwahh!
@#!%&*+
zettai kitaihazure na seiseki
jukenshiyou to suru
ai nante
nice symbol
sukiyanen!
wahahaa
role model
disappointment = expectation?
stop expectin?
eh?! dame ne!
keep track
cliff-hangin
*winks!
pottery on tv
nande?!
baka-ish lookin
hohoho
ugly
MINIKUI!
golden mouse
award
ichi rittoru no namida
NAMIDA
suki desu, DAIsuki
a seemingly innocent question
shockingly disturbin consequence
stay away from bitchin
zen
ipod
just smile
sunshine
yellow
RYO-chan! =DD
zee's love
mochi
connin!
lowell study
whr is dicky?
brain cranky
kaypoh!
-owari-
sorry, dont knoe what to blog and in no mood to blog, so just make do x)
Labels: make do with, no mood
1:14 AM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
'photoblog'
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Labels: 'photoblog'
9:51 PM
Monday, March 10, 2008
pic spam
pic spam!!! alright, i realised i have quite some pics i shud start postin or my this blog will be a real bore. i am havin fun shuttlin to and fro lj and blogspot now, no wretch, thats a terror, might consider photoblog tho, kinda like the idea.
- whorin at gramp's
- that day at
kpartyworld - trio's [i think we totally love to take three person pics; and we choose to believe that it is not auspicious -.- weirdos. wahahaa!]
- 'ryo-chan all over' i just HAVE to post this x j
- NEW CAM! [the one in black] we actually took less than 5mins to buy; and that includes the choosin time. SUGOI~!
- the quality of pics usin the new cam
tmr i'm so gon be broke! i'm gon make a trip dwn to kino and just that trip alone will cost me.. -calculatin- abt.. -still calculatin~- abt 145bucks?! omedetou~! i am totally burnin a BIG hole in my own pocket! lets see, i am payin the remainin 47 for my calendars (which kino called SIX times to inform me that they've arrived, i dont knoe to call them efficient or irritatin), 45 for my mags, return dicks 29, abt 24 for my jap-chinese dicts cos i think jap-chinese trans are more accurate compared to english. OH! i forgot abt the tokio dv! and thats 40 by itself! so now it's 1-8-5! dies!!! thats like practically 200bucks gone in a day!!! now, i have yet to include my expenses for food, i am DEAD! i eat like a pig these days, at least 4 meals plus heavy munchin evry one hour! banzai~
well, the only gd thg that'l come out of tmr's i'l just die of over-excitement-cum-happiness =DDD plus dicks will be transferin more je stuffs to me.. gosh, am i lookin forward to tmr, work's gone be fine yea? ganbarimasu! x)) all i can think of is the satisfaction i'd get from all that spendin tmr! and the time we're gon spend tgd!!!
yes, of cos there will be the lil small talks on dramas =DD jdrama to be exact. i really LOVEEEE the emphasis they place on friendship work and family. of cos they have their romance but they alws seem to show that it is not evrythg. portrayin that no man's an island, w/o friend, you cant and there is no meanin to bein world's no. 1! ;)
mayb it is the gettin on of age (does it sound wrong?), it seems that i am placin much more importance on friendship. i am no longer forgettin abt ppl whom i was once close to. we may not be able to be as close as before but i make it a point to keep them close to my heart.
i read dick's entry this evenin: (sorry if it's gon be difficult to read but i just thot this colour is aptly and dicks, if you cant read it, it is from your blog anw! so read from your own. didnt forget abt you my 'blind' friend)
i will love u guys, even aft we grad.. even aft we hv our own boyfriends and husbands and kids. not forgetting my dearest pk. my times and years spent with you have been..
this i promise you.
we came a long way to whr we are now, different members gettin closer. each member gettin more involved (esp me!). evn increasin our strength, namely laymong and mr maozee (not my fault but i really dont knoe his name). wait, is mr maozee, mingjie or sth? rarr!` yall are namin too many of your ntu friends in my presence i really cant differentiate xD
well, all i can say is, i want us to be closer if not the same. like the cedar cheer (it just popped up in my brain, and want to be posted on blog)
we are united, we shall not be moved x2
like the trees that are planted by the waterside,
we shall not be moved.
we are from
like the trees that are planted by the waterside,
we shall not be moved.
ok, somehow the cheer sounds wrong, mayb i rmbed it wrongly somewhr but yet, thats my point.
i enjoy how me and maozee are talkin more than before, mayb w/in this yr, we talked more than we did in the first 3yrs! no shit! serious! me and hip's smses are alot more now, tho i think we can still work on it. partner and me.. close but not close, confusin. hehehe! but it is the table-partnership bond that settles evrythg. anw partner, boo means fat in jap! xP hway, hmm we fool ard tgt alot but close.. hwayy! must get closer lei! try, we clique thru sports man! hahaha!me and lowell we were gd from before. pabs we were close from all that different cliques like supersupreme, manbang, etc. yeah, we were that
honestly i am also real proud of how sporty bw is! i mean, from 2 red-x, 1 'super mario (rmb how i used to say boo runs like super mario durin novelty race?) and ONE maozee, thats like almost half of bw! yes, we were half inactive to ALL doin sports! how gd are we?! we are GOOD yo! but i am like in hibernatin stage alr. hahaha!
like i said before (and STILL repeatin), these friendships didnt come easy, it took alot, alot and i mean ALOT of efforts from evrybod tryin to hold this 'wall' tgd. the bricks bein the love that evry member is puttin forward. omg! i must be gettin old, serious this sounds like a baba's post. we're gon turn 20! how scary is that? we're in the middle of lookin young and lookin mature.
dicks, i so get you, i cant bear to think of myself in fbt whn i am 30. eeeeEEOOOOOOWWWWWCHHHHHH! i mean in others' eyes we are almost an adult but why do i still see us as.. TEENAGERS who've just started secondary school?! have yall ever seen seniors or just anybod older than us in this light (whn we were in sec school days)? like you look at the seniors and go, "hoi, so old alr.. grow up can? havin yall behave this way is a disturbance, yucks!" -shakes head- oh, i knoe maozee felt this way too cos i rmb us discussin abt it that day at the mrt stn..
ok, i JUST hafta end with this xP doesnt guys look the hottest whn they are playin instruments? MUSICAL instruments ;)
ok, anw as of tmr i shall try doin 'photoblog'. woohoo! excitin!
Labels: new cam, pic spam, rhymes uh
12:40 AM