Name: Tuesday, December 04, 2007
tight deadlines
gosh, i guess i really hate these rush but i am the one who caused all these. all that believin thgs'd be fine is WRONG! now i am sufferin for my own complacency. i've been doin excel for abt one hour now and the back is killin.. tailbone's never been gd but it seems that this time it is gettin worse with that constant sittin. thats the bad thg abt tailbone injuries, you cant stand and sit for too long and you cant go lyin ard cos you'l look slimy!!! not that i dont look slimy but yeah..i forsee a bad day tmr so dressin up's the word or at least feel better dressed better. and i totally love to blog non-stop whn i am in super bad mood, AND not lazy. rahh!` back hurts yo! might be back. hahaha!
and yes yes, i will wake up. like really wake up. i needa anw. i needa learn to be independent. i must, at least that's what i think i want. the 'sober' me is just not very nice to handle. i try not to give socialisin smiles and it results in semi-stares half the time and with my not very friendly face. woohoo!` i am not as "easy-goin" and considerin i am alr harsh on normal days, now it is worse.
but that doesnt mean that i am totally incorrigible now. i am just tryin to moderate it. i just hate being nice and feelin fucked up myself. mayb it is just time to treat myself better and ignore others' opinions cos at the end of the day, i only answer to myself and nobody's gonna shoulder anythg with me. this is real, this is the world for you yo.
Labels: backache, dress up, excel, the real world
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