new yr!!! gosh, gotta get used to writin 'o8 alr but i prefer writin 'o7 =((

lets recall 'o7!

• thgs becomin really awry
• thgs are takin a turn to become better..
• made great new friends
• lost some really great 'old' friends due to my laziness and negligence (some of them were a blessin to be lost but some.. i had deeply regretted!)
• enrolled into TP!
• took jap, socio, marketin, blah!
• MANY MANY more UPS and DOWNS

oh, oh, OH!!! I LOVE BERLIN WALL SO MUCH MORE IN THIS 'o7! i am finally lettin go and really enjoyin our time together and they've totally experienced my loudness and bimbotiness, but i still love them! for the many stupid moments we've went thru, i love yall MORE! real!

the usual!!! NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!

1. make more efforts for people i love, stop skippin the meet-ups!
2. start gettin the grades
3. money, money and MORE MONEY!
4. enthusiasm, faith and belief
5. take up lessons on what i've intended to learn! dance, drums, etc
6. go japan!
7. SHOPPIN!
8. MAKE darddy get us a cam =DD
9. live a more fulfillin life yo

i hope thats it, it's a long enough list, i'l add on whn i feel like it =DD

school is startin in another day's time, DAMN! i dont feel like goin to school but i want my results fast, cepat cepat!!! hahaha! alright then i'm out! =DD and i cant really decide if i wanna go back to LJ. hahaha! tell me i am fickled. i admit i was really bothered by the fact that i have people readin back then but on a second thot now, why dont i just freakin lock it?! oh! genius -.-

Labels: '08, berlin wall, new year resolutions

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11:51 PM
silence from the slpin family members, music blastin in my ears, groovin to the beats, bingein on chocs. can life be any more perfect? the effects of endorphins are prolly the best thgs in this world. am i glad it is legal still?

i very much dont fancy the recent lack of vocab. maybe it is a sign that i shud start pickin up a book to read. to be captivated by the expressive words may just be a better option than watchin the videos online. in fact, surprisingly, i seem to have ran out of them. more accurately said, i lost interest. i have a long list of shows to watch but i dont seem to have the enthusiasm anymore. maybe because they are all sad and emotional and all i am interested now is to lift my spirits and find my drive back. it is especially so now whn the school is threatenin to start really soon.. say in.. 4 days officially but it really starts in 6, almost in a wk's time to be exact.

i cant explain how i actually found that much courage to stay this strong. i was just braver suddenly. i guess i just gotta be grateful for it. thgs might have been worse whn i used to act tough but this time it needed more efforts than before. there were just many temptations to just stay weak. for me, the only way to stay strong seems to be just keepin to myself. the moment i divulge any of my emotions, i make myself really weak and vulnerable.

nsq's determination and ili's givin up made me wanna pull myself together even more. i guess i found me and nsq's prob. girl, we had 'invisible' support back in the older days cos we alws knew we'd have cedarians/teammates behind us but after we left, we lost that belief. it was just this simple reason that made us crumble but now, we are both tryin to strive for our own lives discardin this belief and in the process creatin new ones if we must. if we'd evn stop to look and listen, we still have others' support, i will alws have my berlins and babe, your bestfs, really. i knoe i cant contact you enough but the random smses are my best efforts.

if i ever wanna run away again, i will run literally. with my feet glued to the floor, metaphorically. i have every intention to start my runnin regime and just hit the track as and whn i'd love to, like in jc days but something is just holdin me back. it is alws difficult to make the first step and i totally hate this feelin but i will CONQUER it!! and start hittin the track again.. hmm.. but i think the reservoir or the gym's a better idea =DD

i was just thinkin i'd just trim my hair for new year, as in CHINESE new year. no way am i snippin it really short this time round. i alws end up cuttin my hair too short for chinese new year.. after which i will cut it to shoulder-length again before yr 2. gosh, am i lookin forward to it, new start =DD oh yeah, then if i must then i will extend my hair again. hahaa! fine, it is a waste of money but isnt it more convenient, i really hatin waitin for my hair to grow. hehehe!

Labels: binge, pillars, serenity, temptations

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11:54 PM
gosh! the BEST christmas present came in the form of a christmas card. it came in only today, cos Mr Postman, in this case, 'Santa' was too caught up this season, thats why the card came late =DD


vivi's christmas card] i was grinnin like a silly fool VIEWIN this card. i was viewin more than readin.. hehhee!

thats all fols =DDDDD happyhappy!

OH anw i thot alvin and the chipmunks wasnt that great.. was nice but.. not as nice.. just abit... bland. guess i expected too much outta it but generally fine if it is a kids' show but could do better!! rahh!` i loved both simon and theodore. i loved simon lots at first then theodore later cos it felt SO adorable but the alvin wasnt outstandin other than the 'cool' part but it looks so skinny and squishable =X hahaha!

Labels: alvin and the chipmunks, christmas gift, santa

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10:54 PM
alright, finally some updates. i met up with The Retards recently.. err.. on... the 18th this month. and and AND i realised we didnt take a grp photo!! -.- eh.. actually we did just that it is with feli =((

Labels: camwhore, kids, maternal, the retards

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7:29 PM
if pictures can really speak a thousand words, this post consists of 2kplus words, a long longgg... post:

Labels: long essay, pictures

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1:11 AM
the identicality of the situation brought tears to my eyes, memories that stay etched. is there really a land of freedom? with that i really dont mean the US. i meant a place where the society views does not place a huge burden on us.

i really dont fancy the feelin of an extreme emotion, one that puts too much weight on the heart. it feels as if someone's squeezin my heart real bad and it gives me breathin difficulty. it is really pain but the feelin of numbness. all i want sometimes is to just be myself but at times, i dont even knoe the real me..

i REALLY love this grp of ppl!

Labels: berlin wall, burdens, land of freedom

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4:39 PM
i still think his voice is nice, as in it feels more soothin. ok, to me la! 萧敬腾's got this very he-is-gon-roar-at-you kinda feel. i think 杨宗纬's not as powerful but it sounds more soothing. oh oh!! then in the 康熙来了萧敬腾 sang jay chou's 霍元甲 super nice cos he used his 假音, it sounded less threatenin. hoho. this is a super cheena post, it must be the night. lol.


杨宗纬 落叶归根

the next vid's openin's kinda cute but the performance's cool, all the three different vocals, different style.


杨宗纬 曹格 萧敬腾 背叛

ok, found this 范范's song which 康康 sang but cant sing as well. the song's quite nice =DD



康康 林宥嘉 到不 [oh, and i finally noticed 康康's real name. hahaha!]

i love the hols, cos whatever i do. i feel free-er, i dont have to answer to anyone. i dont have to answer to anybody on why am i watchin xxx video/programme only now. i enjoy the freedom of not havin to face stupid 'confrontation'. i knoe i am guilty of those too but i just dont like it. at most, i'l stop jackin others that way too. i just wanna be left alone to watch what i want sometimes. i sure wont mind recommendations but just leave my opinions alone. like we have different taste and just learn to accept that before you evn attempt to comment.

Labels: songs and videos

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1:23 AM
there is this part of me that is super lazy to blog now. hoho. today many happened. first, there was the t3 thg which we took little pics. the highlight of today's really the berlin wall meet up! for a long time there hasnt been 9/9 and we had it today!! for abt a few mins.. cos dicky had to leave for her church's xmas prep.. here is a super hilario video of hway hway, promised to put it up! here's the xmas wishes from the birl! dont look at her birky outlook, she's one smart birl who is burp!!! and loves her many!!!



there were SO many videos that i think i will take my time to put up, so i'm gon be back to my dramas! =DDD oh, i forgot... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRY!!!! and i hope the thaipan dinner was great =D

will post hippo's nxt post or sth. i love my birls!!! as alws. the berlin wall will alws stay strong for each other!!

Labels: 9/9, berlin wall, thaipan, try's bday

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11:27 PM
yeah!!! now i'm gon have a hot dad!!! not dad-dad-darddy but pops-dad. eh said he's gon keep his hair like this pic and he's gon have a goatee!!! ignore the PINK hp but the hair rocks ok! got that mat feel and since he intends to be a mat rep, fits perfectly well yo.. and he doesnt look like a kid anymore. he can start lookin his height. i alws thot he is abt 170 or shorter =X LOOKS like. hehs. he is 174 surprisingly, as tall as that alvin kang. and and and, pop's gon keep a goatee. how hot's that!! mayb he shud buff up =DD and he said no more skinnies for him. DAMN, now i cant wait to see pops in school (flirtin) hahaha!




hamsum pop] nice right?! the hair, so mat. hahaaa!

ok, shall blog more abt whats goin on tmr =DDDD tests are FINALLY over! oh yeah! lovelovelove. happyhappyhappy!! it's time for tomoya, tomoya and MORE tomoya! hoho! hehee! =DDD

Labels: happiness, hot pops, pink hp, tomoya

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12:44 AM
one yr has past since i left cj. my life has changed dramatically.. i gain some, i lose some. however, i think what i lost was much more that i've gained. i lost some very impt friendships, ppl as close as family. it was basically cos of my just ignore attitude, i was not ready to give but am only waitin to take.. it was selfishness on my part. those bonds were formed cos we were alws able to be there for each other, yet i broke the bond by runnin away to hide. losin the courage to hear the words of truth from them. sure hope it is not too late to make up =))

Labels: changes in me, past yr, renew, restart, soccer, the bonds

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11:25 PM
ok, my PRETTY excel sheet! i am SO proud of it. it is not your best excel but i am just proud of it cos it is not borin, i love it cos it is colourful cos excel sheets are alws plain for me and the pics i put in the excel. evrythg's so fun in it!! =DD


tomoya in the excel sheet] if yall can actually see, the names i came up with are SUPER crappy, my personal fav's Au Yong KAR BOON. lol.

for some reason my blogger's cranky now so i cant move the pic below the words at all so just bear with it yo? hahaha! if i use opera to blog i cant move the pics, so i am back with ie. bleah!` hoho.
i really dont knoe what else to blog abt. i just wanna type some crap to show that i am STILL alive. hoho. i swear i totally look like a panda today, that kinda eyerings you get from less than 7hours of sleep in 2days, dies.

oh oh, did i say i am SO lookin forward to watchin SEA games? hoho. soccer tmr!! i still prefer watchin soccer =DD too bad i dont have scv or i can catch ALL the epls. hahaha! then i can say gdbye to sch and work. lol.

Labels: blog, excel sheet, scv, SEA games

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11:33 PM
gosh, sddenly i just feel super free after finally completin ALL the individual projects for the time being and did i say that i am SUPER pleased with my excel evn if it wasnt like the best excel sheet in the world? i was just super gay to have many colours on my sheets and make it look pretty pretty. i just randomly added in whatever pics i please. oh, i added in tbaby's face. hahaha!

i was just thinkin.. gigglers' wednesday just sound like some talkshow and i came across this youtube vid. well, if Gigglers' Wednesday was a talkshow, it'd be like this:



i actually finished watchin it for the whole 6mins plus. at the end of it i really wonder, is she crazier or me? to sit watchin this whole lame thg for 6MINS PLUS but i think she and love make a better duo than bj and love. imagine she and love laughin at the same time. woohoo!`

ANGEL: i dont care you knoe nagase tomoya not, you must go find some nice nice stuffs on him =DD

Labels: angel, gigglers' wed, laughin girl

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2:01 PM
i am totally lovin this game =DD back then twas a game to nurture an invisible 'bestie'. it is slightly different this time. cos honestly ho3 has never been really close. it wasnt like cedarians had no cliques but our cliques were like interlinked. lol. and now ho3's gon be like this too! cos our mortals or whatsoever's definitely from another clique, i hope? and this way it is as if the class really has a chance to interact.

today was the ultimate! there was like some black market goin on in the lab. evrybod was walkin ard tryin to stuff a letter or two into the other party's hands. twas like a club scene and they were tryin to stuff k or sth into each others' hands! i love this feel! the mysterious atmosphere and fine, there were white lies but i really hate ppl who make thgs so obvious, so SO obvious the mortal can guess. rahh!` i wanna bite them.

amidst all the stress and deadlines, this is like a form of stress release and i can see some of the angels/mortals are openin up and writin stuffs more than 'hi, i'm watchin over you' and whatsoever. yeah!! i hope this turns out great and we can do this agn in yr2 even IF we are no longer in the same class!


vivi&me] socio class rocks yo!

Labels: angel-mortal, bondin, socio class

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10:21 PM
this is damn dumb, i am damn bored in the library. i came in time for lect but i am not in the LT, how dummy? rahh!` since i am stuck in the library and my excel, lets upload some photos man...

Labels: family love

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9:30 AM
gosh, i guess i really hate these rush but i am the one who caused all these. all that believin thgs'd be fine is WRONG! now i am sufferin for my own complacency. i've been doin excel for abt one hour now and the back is killin.. tailbone's never been gd but it seems that this time it is gettin worse with that constant sittin. thats the bad thg abt tailbone injuries, you cant stand and sit for too long and you cant go lyin ard cos you'l look slimy!!! not that i dont look slimy but yeah..

i forsee a bad day tmr so dressin up's the word or at least feel better dressed better. and i totally love to blog non-stop whn i am in super bad mood, AND not lazy. rahh!` back hurts yo! might be back. hahaha!

and yes yes, i will wake up. like really wake up. i needa anw. i needa learn to be independent. i must, at least that's what i think i want. the 'sober' me is just not very nice to handle. i try not to give socialisin smiles and it results in semi-stares half the time and with my not very friendly face. woohoo!` i am not as "easy-goin" and considerin i am alr harsh on normal days, now it is worse.

but that doesnt mean that i am totally incorrigible now. i am just tryin to moderate it. i just hate being nice and feelin fucked up myself. mayb it is just time to treat myself better and ignore others' opinions cos at the end of the day, i only answer to myself and nobody's gonna shoulder anythg with me. this is real, this is the world for you yo.

Labels: backache, dress up, excel, the real world

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2:44 AM
actually i am quite sad my mom, sis and bro'l be flyin off tmr. and it will be just me and my darddy.. i dont like this. over this time, i have grown closer with my mom. over something not too nice. it just made me realise that there are no bad events. evrythg's under God's control, no misfortunes but just blessin in disguise. i believe God has his plans, he made choose the hardest way out for me, because he believes i can, like many others. it is definitely high time for me to start workin up nad tryin to shun myself from the world but face the world bravely.

Labels: mommy flyin off, tomo pics

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11:39 PM
thats the no. for the day yo! 3-2, 3-2, THREE-TWO! woohoo! raddy's still the man! i am SO glad that he decided to drop agu casmir that... rahh!` can i just say how glad i am?! lol. and i think darddy's watchin soccer now cos i totally ADORE it. i just have so much to talk abt on to topic of soccer. i kinda prefer local soccer more tho they are totally unlike the epl, champs or whatever but mayb it is the patroitism. i mean, i watched soccer back then cos of influence but now, i LOVE it.. i may not be as gd cos i cant really play the game but i love watchin it, love the infinite possibilities present in the game itself. it feels the phrase, 'the ball is round, anythg can happen in a game' to the T. ever tried the kinda mass curse, mass cheer adrenalin flow? thats the bomb i'm tellin you, thats what made me fall for it. bein me, loud, unrestrained speakin, shoutin and cursin as i wish and gettin totally excited by the possible goals. ROCKS!

Labels: huge workload, lions, mass curse, work

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10:46 PM
ok, i am mother tired but i insist on bloggin cos it was a really great experience. well, even tho it was freakin tirin but i had so much fun. i made new friends!! yoohoo. lol. there were DD's friend, Genevieve (i dont knoe how to spell her name), Sam (our leader from marketin), Shep (from Law, hilario fella), Ben (irritatin but nice fella), the bespectacle guy who's name i cant rmb.. adn the babyfaced boy who was super great to work with. the girls like maybelle, maybelin (not sure of the spellin again) and the rest who's name i cant rmb again were super great bunch we were crappy. hahaha! i hope i didnt miss out any of them. they were really nice. tat yi came to help with the shoutin also. it was like some lelong scene, freakin sweet. lol.

i was SO surprised i swear. as in there were like actually guys who were normal. like fine, they bully us like normal guys but they knew how to give way to us like do the more tedious tasks for us like a man and like protect us. so much so that we can practically leave thgs to them. i am so sick of havin to stand at the frontline myself i am really gettin kinda sick. yet, these guys actually surprised me that tp ppl can be normal. hahaha!

it was funny later me sep and bj concluded that the 88batch guys were also, 89s were still fine, by 90 the guys were weird alr. then we were sayin that the 89s were the evolution stage. lol. i guess we were too tired we were crappy.

oh, i saw quite a few ppl too. first i saw cj's lala, weipeng, then matthew yong. he was weird, i rmb him bein a short-d runner in cj but he actually ran the FULL marathon. hoho. he did in in 4.15, which wasnt that bad a timin i guess? he looks hot!!! hahaha! =DD then we saw cedar's suihui, seok imm, cj's tiffany and another cj tracker previously from crescent, cant rmb her name. hahaa! i saw yu zheng also, cj's teddy bear =DD ok fine, i just saw alot of ppl but i just have a feelin i left out a few here and there. sorry, i am really too tired to get evrythg right...

lala, thats abt the end of this post. i will add in names later if i can rmb them =)) and kelsen, i am so sorry i cudnt make it to your match. the event ended like 3plus and i was alr deadbeat. i knoe the competition's impt. i am so sorry aye? i hope it went well...

ohyeah, i am totally shocked that the adverlets' CEO josh actually visited my blog. in the first place, how did he hear of it. hoho. i feel like callin him joshy. hahaha! the name's freakin cool, so cute if it's joshy. lol. i am cranky alr. zZzzzzzz....

Labels: familiar faces, marathon, standard chartered, tp lot

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5:49 PM