Name: Thursday, November 29, 2007
i cant cope and i hate it
it is only after catchin up with the crowd that i realised that i didnt just change. i changed drastically. i am totally not the person who left cj and just joined tp. in an attempt to cope and blend in, i kicked my old habits. it was still easy at first, i had thgs goin smoothly, i was still playin nball. there were a gazillion ways to release my stress.today was abit weird. i wasnt like before, the noisy kid. hoho. i hesitated to speak up (like wtf?!), i just wanted to be left alone. gosh, who is that, what pk. roar!` later part i started warmin up and findin the kick. i prefer the noisy and pk who sprouts vulgarities so often you'd take it as part of her speech.
i realised ever since i went to tp and the case, i held back alot. well, you gotta attribute that to the guys i hang ard with as well. like pls! the bous totally have no balls and they dont knoe what is standin up for their friends, being protective of the girls, much less standin up for themselves. they only knoe how to make the girls help them with this and that but well, cos of that i got to make them carry my lappy. that isnt too bad a thg. THAT is the only gd thg. they only 'bully' the girls but dont dare to stand up agnst anybod else, seriously, that aint too cool, boy.
culture shock plus all that crap frm the mix school kids. i am being extreme but fuck it ok? i've had enough of the nonsense toleratin all that crap. if you evn bother noticin i am slowly startin to lose my temper, i dont want no more crap. shitass, i dont give a damn abt ppl not being able to accept the vulgarities. or mayb i might just not talk as much then. ppl takin the nice-ness for granted. trust me, very soon, very soon it shall be gone.
11:36 PM