Name: Monday, October 15, 2007
wee hours
gosh, i really hate feelin so weak and just fallin apart as and whn i feel like it. i also hate the fact of alws only havin negative emotions to blog abt. i stayed up ahn to watch vids. this time it isnt because i cant slp. in fact, i think i feel horribly slpy but i still stayed up and sobbed myself silly. i actually feel more real whn i am cryin like crap. i believe that whn i cant get any worse, i will rebound and become happier, lets hope it is soon. i used to dress up nicer whn i am feelin lousy to lift my spirits but now i cant evn be bothered. on top of the lack of clothes, don’t ask me how but i seem to have no clothes to wear, there is also the reluctance to shop. firstly, i don’t really shop, secondly, i am still waitin for the damn cheque and i really need a job, boy.later i gotta have breakfast with another person who wanna act as if he cares. alws insistin on meetin only to tell me that he has to rush off. whats with the behaving like a busy businessman? i’m sorry i cant appreciate it. i’d rather not meet than make it seem like a chore.
i hate the feelin of shoulderin a prob by oneself and have it weighin dwn on you so much that you cant evn control your tears. i especially hate to see it bein acted out. it causes dehydration on my part. new word!!
Labels: macs breakfast, weak, wee hours
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