Name: Monday, October 22, 2007
suppressed
the mood now is: stone, bad, negative, not givin a damn. it seems as if nothing matters. maybe love is right, too much dramas're takin a toll on my 'right' life. just who decides what is right? i hate the schedule, i hate the hectic feel, hate the tirin feelin, the lack of sense of satisfaction, the lack of sense of achievement, the failure to feel enriched with knowledge, not feelin like i am learnin new thgs, the lack of feelin awed... and many many more. i dont like. tmr i am skippin because it is only one lack tmr and i am not makin the journey there just for two hours. not worth it. i am makin so much noise cos i am not bothered anymore. it is not because of excitement, enthusiasm, elation(if there's sucha word) or whatsoever. i am just tired and i really dont give a damn, so i am just makin noises at will. so must emotions whelmin within that i cant let up cos it will just explode. now topped with fatigue, lets just hope stonin can soothe all these emotions.it really doesnt help that all the dramas are at their emo moments now. urgh!` and i really hate the fact that we were supposed to be all involved but now, we seem redundant. *#&$*#&$%(*($#*
Labels: fatigue, hectice, suppression, tight
10:44 PM