Name: Monday, October 22, 2007
moments before sch starts
Bloggin at the weirdest hour of the day again. It is 439am now and I cant get to sleep. I slpt for one hour frm abt 2am to 3plus and here I am awake again. I decided that I might as well stay and stay up and make myself so tired I’l slp soundly tonight. I’ve never been so unexcited abt goin to school before, hatin it so much I am not looking forward. It has nothing to do with the ppl I will meet, this I gotta admit. It is the lack of feelings. Being in a poly means you will lose chance to have super close friends, at least not many. I have b, seppie and dinny. Yet, they are splitin all of us just to mix us up. This means lesser time together and more new friends. What if I prefer the old ones? What if I don’t want to socialize? I guess I don’t have a choice the moment I chose a business course.It is rainin now, the feelin of a rainy day just hypes me up. Nothing excites me more than a rainy day. Today feels like a gd day for it is MONday (LOL!) and it is rainin now. All these make today more bearable. I am not excited about school because I feel like an embryo forcefully removed from a mother’s womb. All that warmth and protection gone, just me to face the world. I am just getting comfy alone and now I gotta get used to the crowd again. I don’t mind hangin out with my close friends but to get used to ppl again I am not as confident.
Kor said to get As and he’l treat me. He is dead =DD I’m gon work for all the As so I can burn a hole in his pocket. I think I am missin him so much. I hafnt met him since kerr came back. I sure don’t miss his jackings but I miss those times whn we’d sit by the school corridor to discuss abt our team issues. The times whn netball and soccer were real close. If only we can help them with their trainings too but too bad. I rmb how they’d learn how to play netball just to help us train to be tougher, faster and strong. I really miss those times of playin your favourite sport with your favourite ppl. It was all smiles. All the injuries were worth it but that was the past. I rmb how it’d be a captain vs captain thg. Kor vs me and mind you, he is 180plus and FINE! I am not evn 160. he can bloody jump, so can I but there is alr a disadvantage in the height difference! We’d be runnin and jumpin so hard for the pride. Both of us knoe, either cant afford to lose, that kinda competition felt real gd. It was as if we represented our own cca. The feel was great. The two sports may not be alike in any single way other than our being team play and ball game. One was a hand-sport, the other a leg-sport. We’d support each others’ team. I rmb arguing with my arrogant pe tchr cos he put the soccer team dwn, those rebellious days. I miss those days whn I’d watch kor and his team play. Esp whn those players were ppl I knoe, great ppl who put in their all and sweat for the team. You don’t see victory or lose in their game, you see their passion, their flair. They played their beautiful game. I miss the hugs and the smile I see on kor’s face whn he wins a game, minus the perspiration. He’s like a reservoir whn it comes to that. I have unknowingly typed a long para on kor. This is definitely not cos of the treat but I love kor, the feel of a brother carin, a family member with no blood ties. He may not be as gd as putting his stand across, alws makin ppl hate him, alws comin across as proud and arrogant. But to me, he has a heart of gold, he cares. He just isn’t gd with expressin it in a nicer way. This alws results in many ppl hatin him. He doesn’t mean any harm, just his choice of word. Yet, to me he’s a really great guy. GREATEST! =DD he’s like a bro I never had. If I have to go on, it’d take forever, so I shall try to go back to slp now.
fine, i am too lazy to correct this post so it is in a typical microsoft format.
Labels: insomniac, kor, read, schoolio
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