Name: Sunday, October 21, 2007
the last few moments of isolation
adversity makes one stronger, especially one who wants to protect himself badly. yet, the slightest hint of negative emotion would result in a lost of direction. that slightest negativity may just cause you to do things you will regret for all your life. you dont have to be strong to excel, you can still hide your weak side and still strive to outdo others and get on with your individualistic ways. you dont necessarily have to let anyone in, for three's a crowd. you only have space for that one special person.i realized i dont enjoy arguin for my rights anymore. it doesnt really matter if ppl take my stand. it doesnt make a difference anymore. because i realized if you shud make others to understand your view, you'd have to let them into your comfort zone. that'd mean leavin your weakness exposed. if thats the case, i'd rather keep my own view and not be bothered to make my stand. afterall, it really doesnt make a difference. i dont have to make an impact, i just have to protect myself. i chose to lock myself away, there is no need to unlock just to prove to others that my stand is impt. i dont like to argue because speakin from the bottom of your heart means gettin emotional and cryin uncontrollably. i dont like that, so i am lockin that away to the deepest part of my heart.
SCHOOLS STARTIN IN...... abt TEN HOURS! gosh! this feelin sucks. tmr'd make the end of isolation, i dont fancy that feel. twas nice meetin up with tp ppl. well, part of the gigglers met up. dinny, we didnt ask you cos we went kbox and it's mostly chinese songs, so it's kinda a waste of moolah.
in the end we started k-ing at 2pls. the girls met up first before Mr Pudding(LOL!) and nibbs came at abt 5. they are DUMB! they took almost TWO hours to come to amk frm parkway. omg. cos they happily took the train whn bus was a smarter choice. me and b was havin very bad throat, so there were lots of croakin and songs of male artistes'. surprisingly puddin was singling english songs!!!! that cheena poke was actually singin ENGLISH songs!!! it was a super messy kbox. anw love, i just gotta say that i felt what you were feelin but trust me, i wont do anythg to hurt you =)) you just gotta trust me at this point of time first. today that fat puddin was bein gay and he just kept doin gay dance. the whole thg was a blur, i am so tired i cant rmb much.
i just knoe the girls were bein quite gay too. me and sep was happily talkin nonsense and sep was also involved with lotsa crap. this kinda outings shud be held often and the guys were nice to ome join us in civilized amk. but all of you shud really see the expression on b's face whn she saw the ulu lift. me and love laughed for damn long. and whn we were bringin the grp to pizzahut. the look of the guys' face whn i brought them thru a whole stretch of dark streets. it is as if the very civilized amk sddenly became ulu pandan! funny shit!
aft that we decided to eat at love's hse instead cos bigger and we really dont wanna wait. cos that Mr Pudding was a fussy poke. anws, we rot there for a while, crappin, decidin what to eat, blahs. then i was just more interested in DBY, love entertainin, b forcin puddin to help with her mj and dont knoe what nibbs was doin.. entertainin the operator? well, come to think of it evrybod's so busy who was love entertainin? hahaha! then the not hungry me got tempted by the nuggets. i finished my ep of DBY and decided to save the sadder ep to watch alone. i ransacked love's fridge and found strawberry pie!! =DD she said was too sweet but i thot twas ok and it ended up gettin munched away by me and that FAT puddin. hahaa! then me, b and that pudd rushed for the nuggets. we were like some pigs. gosh! fat can?!
finally the pizzas arrived but i was alr leavin, needa go home for my DBY and darddy's anal so better play safe =DDD still, i had SO much fun today but k was kinda waste of moolah but still so much fun. the feel of ppl hoverin near my square of trust. they were at the right side, not at the corners that prick and hurt. *smirk.
school startin and i hate that repulsive action of yours. i am not that dumb to be taken in. i am not interested.
Labels: amk, hide oneself away, isolation, k, love's home, strive to be the best, ulu
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