Name: Saturday, October 20, 2007
cowardice
i wish i can stop hatin myself for the thgs i refuse to do anymore. the case robbed me of my courage, the 'me' of the past. the case was an example of excess courage and stupidity. as much as i have got rid of the stupidity, i lost my courage as well. the feelin of not bein able to stand up agnst bigger bodies for what you believe is right sucks. not being abt to stand up for others agnst conservationists.the cowardly behaviour was so bad, whn i am faced with such situations, instead of takin a step forward, i took TWO steps backwards. a normal person would have only takin one but i took two. i am so afraid to face it agn. the lost of courage made me not want to face the world anymore. i dont want to show the side of me evn i cannot accept. feelin so afraid i cant pluck up enough courage to put my name down. afraid of how the person would view the whole thg because of me, my profile. the whole thg just sucks alright i hate my cowardice, my lack of vocab.
Labels: courage, fear, retreat
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