Name: Saturday, October 13, 2007
negativity
我到底是谁在你心中占有
怎样的地位
你不说清楚
你让去我们的爱
坠在七里雾
爱很讨厌
总是忽近又忽远
的让人追
追半天你连抱歉
一句抱歉也不给
我向前走低着头
眼泪不停向后流
一直走不回头
希望你会找到我
但是始终不如愿
希望都落空
我仍相信
其实你懂我
我发誓千遍
我这一走
你就无法挽回
虽然心会痛
总比受尽委屈
还要更好过
我等了等
脑海始终浮现
你对我的好
耗半天你连babe
一句抱歉也不给
我向前走低着头
眼泪不停向后流
一直走不回头
希望你会找到我
但是始终不如愿
希望都落空
我仍相信
其实你爱我
一前一后
你跟在我的背后沉默
前前后后
希望你握住我的手
我向前走抬起头
擦掉眼泪向前走
一直走不回头
相信你会找到我
梦里寻他千百遍
希望都实现
我不想走
无法心不痛
i finally broke dwn today, i just cudnt help but just started cryin like a baby. just a minor argument and i just broke dwn, i must have been mad. i am very clear why. ytd i was too tired, i just went to bed at 11pm till almost 6pm today. it was much earlier than norm days. usually i'd watch some sad love stories so that i'l be cryin and after awhile fall back aslp but it wasnt so ytd. it resulted in an accumulation of negativity. sometimes i cant understand as well, i am slowly becomin a tap, within 30secs and i can be cryin like a kid. luckily it only happens at night and i am generally under control in the day.
actually i think in some sense i am just runnin away but i am cant face it myself. it takes up too much of me to face it. i cant face it alone and i am too stubborn to allow anyone else to help. cryin is slowly losin it's effects, sometimes i feel like punchin but i am not able to do it at will at home. sometimes whn it isnt so bad, i will be resistin the idea of doin anythg that will leave a mark i cant erase. the last thg i want is to leave an injury on myself that will haunt me whn i need to dress up. i hate restrictions.
Labels: baby, negativity, tap
7:15 PM