Name: Sunday, September 23, 2007
time to let it all out like a fart
i think i knoe the reason behind all my sudden surge of emotions, negative ones at that. nothing and nobod seemed right today. i need some retail therapy but mayb even that wont help. i've been bottlin up so much i guess i'm reachin my limits soon (or is it limit? *shruggs). sometimes i just wanna cry but the stubborn me refuse to show any form of weakness, not whn all i want is to be strong. how stupid and contradictin evrythg sounds. i am so lazy to put evrythg to words, now even elvin cant cheer me up. i'm back to the days whn i was tryin so hard to surpress my emotions that the slightest thg that carried sadness with it can set my tears flowin non-stop. one of those times was back whn i was still close with kerrin and she just got pissed with me over i-do-not-knoe-what and i rmb tellin her our friendship was impt and i just went home aft tuition. on that fateful day i rmbed my family was watchin the nkf show, that was whn we were sec3 or something. i just cried over one of the sad patient's lifestory for a gd ten mins. for somebod who rarely shed a tear it was uber bad. i cry more often that before, back in those cedar lower sec days, i can never get myself to cry. i rmb it all started with autumn in my heart and since then my tear glands decided to be more active, how sucky is that.
okie, i am sick of my own old grandma stories so i am endin with the usual.
fierce] i realised i like guys with abit of imperfection, either the toot-toot face or like.. say.. i cant exactly put a word to it but guys who look almost perfect just does not attract me. period.
Labels: imperfect, overwhelm, perfect, yawns
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