Name: Friday, September 21, 2007
fat, Fat, FAT!!!
we managed to drag ourselves up for a jog in the morn. well, it was more like we were just abt to slp and we decided to stay up and go for a mornin jog. the 'we' referred to me and sep. gosh, both of us feel damn fat. just that i looked fatter. kns, i hate all these muscles man. we managed to run abit and went for breakfast.. yeah!! i got my yummy congee. yum yum! we watched a lil of kinship again.. *swoons! elvin is just sweet! evrytime he smiles, i just melt xP i hate evil ppl tryin to break couples up, there'l be retribution! irritatin.. all was well until aft my bath, OMFG! i put on weight agn!!! like.. A-G-A-I-N! now i cant fit into my fattest jeans alr! what am i gon do man! killin myself seems like a better option. my upper body feels okie but it is my lower body just keeps balloonin! i am so scared now! *sobs.
THA letter finally arrived and my mood just took a dip. i am really startin to hate the way my mood has to depend on these thgs, it is just screwed alright? i dont like it one bit.
since i have started and have loads of time.. i guess i shud blog a lil abt mrs serene ng. well, it was sad that she passed away. her reputation with my batch and above hasnt been too gd but the juniors aft us totally loved her i guess. she used to have her bitchy moments but becomin a mother totally changed her.it was really sad that she passed away while givin birth to her son. his name is ethan if i am not wrong. there were just alot of thgs that i am hearin frm here and there are just makin her death evn sadder. it is not exactly our fault that we cudnt rmb much abt her, she only taught us for awhile.. well, at least i rmbed she was a pretty tchr. we read some blogs and we read abt how some juniors wanted to score As for the subjects that she taught and to dedicate it to her. one thg comfortin is that accordin to the islam religion, all women to die durin childbirth goes to heaven. mayb she is better off there as well. me and sep went to her wake, not that i knew how a normal wake shud look like but the way they decorated it looked like God was holdin her close. sweet. anyhow, may her soul rest in peace =))
it is just scary to finally realize how fragile life is. for what we thought was natural, something we took for granted can actually take our lives away.
it is also durin these periods that the cedar spirit shows its worth and what it is capable of. no matter how long or how far apart cedarians are, whn there is a need to come tgd, it can happen w/in a short time. this not only shows how resourceful we are but how tight we are, how close. evry cedarian is close to another few and we just pass this way. i dont care what others may say but i still choose to believe that whn it comes to disseminatin info, esp one that concerns another cedarian, we are quick.
gosh, i am feelin really sucky now, it has nothing to do with the wake but just tha letter. i think i need a strong doze of elvin =))
woots!` the photos were uploaded so fast today! mayb it is because still early and there are not many ppl online.
Labels: cedar spirit, mrs serene ng, sucky feel
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