Name: Sunday, August 24, 2008
brief stopover
yep, just gon be here to announce my new LJ add then i'm gonna scoot off to update in LJ again. yesyes, i realised i am damn bloody contradictin. i moved cos i dont want ppl to read but now i am openly sayin my new add again -.- i guess some things just nv change =DDit's cos ppl like the nigger *ahem* totally doesnt knoe my new 'location', damn~ nice. hahaa! i'm LJ-ing now cos can categorized certain entries as private so i can like restrict the readers of my entry, so i feel better than way, just to satisfy my anal nature. also, the jap fans are more active at the LJ side and it is DEFINITELY more convenient, i totally cant live without my LJ communities now. hehee! tho i'd say it's so much easier postin pics on blog..
and berlinies, zee totally knoe how to access my private entry, ask her! if she doesnt rmb.. err.. i will try to rmb. hahaa! BINTAN SOOON!
after all that crap.. DOUZOU!
cigarettebutts.livejournal.com
Labels: new add
3:35 AM
Monday, June 30, 2008
adieu
i.. kinda moved =DDD movin, moved, whatever, it is somewhat similar. hoho. which is also why there is a sudden lack of entries here. i've been postin diligently to a new lj acct, cos the old one's friends list's a total mess and it's bein used as an 'open' acct for friends with no accts to view my current lj, how convenient. lol.it's understandable since most of my friends have lj and are postin at lj.. so, might as well, it is so on the way =DD
evrytime i do a move, it is a simple sign of me bein anal and not wantin ppl to read secretly. of cos there are ppl i knoe who read 'secretly' basically, they dont tag. lol. hahaa! ppl like.. *cough* potato *cough* ms. noodles *cough* LOL! if i were b, i'd say, tag first then i'l give you the new user. hehee! altho i am damn sure, with potato's ability, she can TOTALLY find my new lj, sure cant underestimate her. hahaa! but since i am not b, i dont post unglam pics of you or whatsoever but you can get the user from b, cos i just told her a few hours ago. yes, not too long ago cos i was happily only writin for my friends who are ljusers. hehee!
i am like some freekid who posts and posts. not gd, i am supposed to be studyin damn it! grrhhhh!'
Labels: moved again
3:12 AM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
every meetin has to come to an end
as it was for this event. i did manage to snap some pics in the last day and a few in the lil india day. i shud have taken more durin the mustafa times cos that was really hilarious and thats what made me kinda attached to them x'((the pics are in random orders:
mr jeffrey mcclure & mr jason henderson] roamin ard lil india's provision stores, all these ppl.. whatever they can get their hands on goes to their noses. they are chefs so i guess smellin the stuffs becomes a habit..
me&blondie] here you go, my fav. blonde =DDD
masterpiece]
MR JEFFREY ANDERSON!!!!] he rocks man! he is like some kid alws wanderin ard but somehow he is alws able to WANDER back to join us. i said wander cos he'd alws look lost walkin back. he's a really really sweet and funny guy. we went to mustafa and he did an indian accent IN FRONT of the indian cashier, we were so scared the cashier'd kill us or sth and he started sufferin from 'claustrophobia'. hahaa! he also found this sign that warns the staff not to chuck empty cartons at the particular spot BUT at the same spot there was a rack for empty cartons -.- lets assume there was a typo. lets just say we just had SO much fun at mustafa. hahaa! OH! and the way he flags cab. OMG! he sure is desperate to get one. hahaa!
mr jesus lobo & mr ken jenner] i think mr jenner's cute! hahaa! and he is uber nice as well, i was talkin to him abt how the neighbourhoods in singapore are like and how we think an one hour journey's considered terrible for locals here. lol.
they were supposed to cook satay sauce at the TCA that day and i was their 'sous chef' it was so fun workin with him and mr suman roy. mr roy looked damn pro, well he is a big-time chef anyhow and cos he is indian he is kinda gd with it =DD anw like i was sayin.. mr jenner's so nice he was tastin the sauce and he made me try it also and it was so nice cos he actually trusted me to try it whn he is somewhat a chef himself xDDD
mr jeff anderson & mrs jean lee] mrs lee was one of those in lil india and she is sucha nice lady, i totally enjoyed myself tellin her all the trivias that i knew abt the indian culture in singapore..
mr suman roy] he rocks! he is super loud and funny! he's a really gd chef cos he is an indian so he is in touch with the spices and he is currently located in canada so he kinda has the best of both world? he is totally fun! like some pimp. hahaa!
mrs deborah grossman] she is really like the old auntie but the v sweet kind. at first i thot she was like kinda unfriendly but it turned out that twas cos she is kinda hard of hearin so if she cant hear me, she definitely cant react to me. hahaha! she was so sweet, i really cant find another word for it.. she was part of the lil india grp and she was one of the first to rmb my name. niceee! she totally loved souvenirs and she managed to get a few nice souvenirs for her son-in-law and herself.
prize presentation]
gutou & mr christopher ivens-brown] doesnt she just look traumatised? hahaa!
potato, mr brown & me!] he is super nice, he is like the mood-maker and like playboy-like. blondie's his scandal. hahaa!
mr jose sainz] IF i didnt get his name wrong. he is the v obvious mexican cos of his accent but he is not that difficult to understand so i guess it is ok =))
mr jason henderson] he sure is one stubborn person, thats what makes him unbearable but we kinda think he is cute. hahaa! i guess he is just too determined and persistent, v one-sided. other than that he is ok!
mr richard vernon aka mr noodles & mr paul carr (i think?)] mr noodles' permanent sous chef is like gutou. hahaa! dont they just match? lol. he is a sweet guy as in v soft-spoken, gentle and well-mannered. like he'd be quiet, i dont even think he socialises much. v kept-back and evn whn he speaks to us, he is SOFT! and he says thank-you in a soft voice as well.. how demure's that? =)))
mr jeff AGAIN! =DD] yes, he gave us a hug before they left ras. saddenin! =(((
blondie] i didnt knoe what was she doin and i was thinkin whn has she become a stick -face-to-face-camwhore. it was only after i took the pic that i realised she was posin like this..
gerri] this is gerri and she reminds me of zee, she is v sweet and funny as well. the only incident i rmb of her was whn we were bitchin abt this irritatin biatch! hahaa!
ms michelle moran] she is super friendly to us, esp potato!
sous chef & chef] this is potato and her chef ms moran!
Labels: delegates, tasty singapore
12:02 AM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
practice
boku wa, netsu to shikki o, hontou suki ja nai!
dakara zettai iraira suru
ima shuui no shikki, hyaku-ju paasento no you na.
afureru zannen maru ichinichi gakkari shita
ippou dewa ki onetchuu shite iru de,
mou ippou dewa minna to zenbu ni unzarisuru da.
i'm just tryin to prac so evn if you think my grammatical structure's screwed, let it alone
dakara zettai iraira suru
ima shuui no shikki, hyaku-ju paasento no you na.
afureru zannen maru ichinichi gakkari shita
ippou dewa ki onetchuu shite iru de,
mou ippou dewa minna to zenbu ni unzarisuru da.
i'm just tryin to prac so evn if you think my grammatical structure's screwed, let it alone
Labels: prac
2:37 AM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
when they say read between the lines, mayb they really meant it..
playground
smile
curves
lines
teeth
stain
forced contentment
hair
black
grey
hands
open
barricade
hidden
shiro tshiatsu
crumble
believe not
motivated not
ekubo daisuki desu
smile
curves
lines
teeth
stain
forced contentment
hair
black
grey
hands
open
barricade
hidden
shiro tshiatsu
crumble
believe not
motivated not
ekubo daisuki desu
Labels: mental game
10:29 PM
when you decide to be stupid, this is what happens
Mash Game: Predict Your Future at eSPIN-the-Bottle | |||
 | I will marry Nishikido Ryo. | ||
  | After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Osaka in our fabulous Apartment. | ||
 | We will have 9 kid(s) together. | ||
  | Our family will zoom around in a white Sports. | ||
 | I will spend my days as a Housewife, and live happily ever after. | ||
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1:00 AM
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
THE performance
with a lil fangirl-ing on some gayness. anw they held hands at one point cos the lyrics goes, 'do not let go of my hand'
Labels: misetekure, rock
5:11 AM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
so.. what's your take on smokin?
met up with one of my friend for a short while recently.. yes, amidst my crazy proj schedule, and now i am takin up another job, tell me abt it. anw, yes, us bein us we decided to stay cooped in some cafe and chill. alot of topics came up within that short 3hours. it's definitely been some time since we last met up and lots of catchin up's definitely inevitable. i simply couldnt stop bein amazed at how much we've she's grown, in no time, we will be enterin the society.
somehow we got to the topic of smokin. yesyes, that babe knoes what i do and dont. so we started discussin abt why ppl smoke these days. of cos i am not gon scream SMOKIN IS BAD! neither do i think it is good. i just think too much of anythg is bad. with that i dont mean anybod shud attempt drug. hahaa! comin to think of it, i think half of my friends smoke and it is definitely sad that one or two of them smoke cos they think it is cool and they totally dont enjoy doin it, so why bother?
of cos, i have friends who succumb to stress and end up lightin up. and these ppl are usually the ones who totally give me a shock cos i alws end up catchin them in the act and i dont knoe why it kinda hurts sometimes cos i alws think, why cudnt they've just told me man..
i think smokin is ok, it is a gd way to destress and i am totally used to ppl smokin whn they are stressed in their work and tryin to work sth out lightin a stick but on norm days it shudnt be the case. hoho. i think social are definitely fine too. i dont believe in what the tp jerome said, that he doesnt believe in social cos they are fakers. err.. no, socials are no fakers :)) they are ppl who do not get addicted but still enjoy what they are doin, thats the main thg isnt it? i think all the smokers that i knoe are mainly from cj. hahaha! great school culture yeah? hoho.
of cos there are many who are quittin, hooray! or mayb just 'demotin' from reg to social. hahaa! thats good enough i think. scooby said sth damn true, for those who smoke cos it's cool, may they shudnt cos with so many smokers these days, it is those who dont smoke who are cooler.
ok, i dont knoe what i am blabberin abt. hehee! all i think that it is ok to smoke but not do it cos 'hey! it's cool!' -.-
somehow we got to the topic of smokin. yesyes, that babe knoes what i do and dont. so we started discussin abt why ppl smoke these days. of cos i am not gon scream SMOKIN IS BAD! neither do i think it is good. i just think too much of anythg is bad. with that i dont mean anybod shud attempt drug. hahaa! comin to think of it, i think half of my friends smoke and it is definitely sad that one or two of them smoke cos they think it is cool and they totally dont enjoy doin it, so why bother?
of cos, i have friends who succumb to stress and end up lightin up. and these ppl are usually the ones who totally give me a shock cos i alws end up catchin them in the act and i dont knoe why it kinda hurts sometimes cos i alws think, why cudnt they've just told me man..
i think smokin is ok, it is a gd way to destress and i am totally used to ppl smokin whn they are stressed in their work and tryin to work sth out lightin a stick but on norm days it shudnt be the case. hoho. i think social are definitely fine too. i dont believe in what the tp jerome said, that he doesnt believe in social cos they are fakers. err.. no, socials are no fakers :)) they are ppl who do not get addicted but still enjoy what they are doin, thats the main thg isnt it? i think all the smokers that i knoe are mainly from cj. hahaha! great school culture yeah? hoho.
of cos there are many who are quittin, hooray! or mayb just 'demotin' from reg to social. hahaa! thats good enough i think. scooby said sth damn true, for those who smoke cos it's cool, may they shudnt cos with so many smokers these days, it is those who dont smoke who are cooler.
ok, i dont knoe what i am blabberin abt. hehee! all i think that it is ok to smoke but not do it cos 'hey! it's cool!' -.-
Labels: smoking
9:08 PM
i am willing to try but what about you?
instead of frettin over the Sichuan earthquake or the unfortunate event in Myanmar (sorry, i am not too clear abt this), whr all we can do is donate our clothes, daily necessities and money. mayb we shud just look ahead and see our biggest prob, the ailin earth. i kinda knew Singapore kinda has this save Gaia campaign goin on but if you ask me i'd say the effort is weak. is this like some worldwide event thing? cos seriously, or shud i say ironincally, i am hearin or seein the efforts of this 'save-the-earth' of sorts event, from Japanese media; Touch! Eco 2008. i still do keep my tv on with the local progs alright the Japanese are doin lots like this within the eco week which i assume is from 2june to 8june. the celebrities took up different challenges by carryin acts that were eco-friendly if i'm not wrong and one of them was to educate the africans or sth.. here's one of them. it is a clip showin the performance of the song fuka-fuka love the earth which translates into let's love the earth gently. it is a song co-written by all 7 of them in the band and the lightin of the performance was actually generated by the celebrities cyclin their asses off below the stage.
but i gotta admit the adverts that Singapore has come up with feels real and movin. i guess it is one of the rare adverts that deserves praises. basically the Gaia from our Save Gaia campaign comes from this..
The Gaia hypothesis is an ecological hypothesis that proposes that the biosphere and the physical components of the Earth (atmosphere , cryosphere, hydrosphere and lithosphere) are coupled together to form a complex interacting system. This system is proposed to act in a homeostatic fashion that preserves climatic and biogeochemical conditions on Earth that are suitable for living organisms. Named after the Greek Titan of the earth, the hypothesis is frequently described as viewing the Earth as a single organism. (from Wiki)
so now i finally see the reason behind the govt's effort in tryin to motivate ppl to save on the electricity and the vigorous campaigns on savin electricity and the use of canvas bags instead of plastic bags. i guess it is workin? cos it is subtle and it slowly becomes part of us, a habitual thg..
after all that bullshit, seriously i think i am your most eco-unfriendly person but i sure dont fancy carryin plastic bags ard unless necessary. so does that make me more eco-friendly now? i am not bein pro-Japanese here but it is still nice seein the efforts they are puttin it to create an awareness. some part of me dont really care if it is from the bottom of their hearts that they care for the earth or simply doin it for publicity cos it is heartenin seein ppl evn tryin. mayb, just mayb, from today, i can just do a small part. i was once that selfish to think that i need not cos i wont live to see the earth deteriorates but now, i might just wanna consider how i cant do my part (less hairspray anybod? hahaa!).
just a tiny question... why is environmentally-friendly shortened to eco-friendly?
i was supposed to blog abt my ssm proficiency test and my drama review on Last Friends but well, i guess this needed more attention so those two just gotta wait..
but i gotta admit the adverts that Singapore has come up with feels real and movin. i guess it is one of the rare adverts that deserves praises. basically the Gaia from our Save Gaia campaign comes from this..
The Gaia hypothesis is an ecological hypothesis that proposes that the biosphere and the physical components of the Earth (atmosphere , cryosphere, hydrosphere and lithosphere) are coupled together to form a complex interacting system. This system is proposed to act in a homeostatic fashion that preserves climatic and biogeochemical conditions on Earth that are suitable for living organisms. Named after the Greek Titan of the earth, the hypothesis is frequently described as viewing the Earth as a single organism. (from Wiki)
so now i finally see the reason behind the govt's effort in tryin to motivate ppl to save on the electricity and the vigorous campaigns on savin electricity and the use of canvas bags instead of plastic bags. i guess it is workin? cos it is subtle and it slowly becomes part of us, a habitual thg..
after all that bullshit, seriously i think i am your most eco-unfriendly person but i sure dont fancy carryin plastic bags ard unless necessary. so does that make me more eco-friendly now? i am not bein pro-Japanese here but it is still nice seein the efforts they are puttin it to create an awareness. some part of me dont really care if it is from the bottom of their hearts that they care for the earth or simply doin it for publicity cos it is heartenin seein ppl evn tryin. mayb, just mayb, from today, i can just do a small part. i was once that selfish to think that i need not cos i wont live to see the earth deteriorates but now, i might just wanna consider how i cant do my part (less hairspray anybod? hahaa!).
i was supposed to blog abt my ssm proficiency test and my drama review on Last Friends but well, i guess this needed more attention so those two just gotta wait..
Labels: eco week 2008, save Gaia
4:32 AM
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
compilation
Last Friends: (ep.4)
boku wa.. itsumo.. kino(kimi no) matte.. matsu matsu.. akunai da..
hitoribocchitte yuna, minna sou dayo
Kanjani 8: (Itsuta Mata)
dakishimete hoshii yoru boku datte tsuyokunai kara
kizutsuku koto saw osoreteta
kinou niwa mou, modoranaiyo
tsuyoku nara kara
What you looking for flyin into the sky
All you gotta do is believe
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First completed the movie Crows Zero, basically it is your action flick; a high school based. Fine, I gotta admit that I am totally addicted to Jap production, storyline and what have you. So much so that I am havin probs tryin to appreciate western movies. It is either that or no movies are up to standards for my likin so far.
boku wa.. itsumo.. kino(kimi no) matte.. matsu matsu.. akunai da..
hitoribocchitte yuna, minna sou dayo
Kanjani 8: (Itsuta Mata)
dakishimete hoshii yoru boku datte tsuyokunai kara
kizutsuku koto saw osoreteta
kinou niwa mou, modoranaiyo
tsuyoku nara kara
What you looking for flyin into the sky
All you gotta do is believe
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First completed the movie Crows Zero, basically it is your action flick; a high school based. Fine, I gotta admit that I am totally addicted to Jap production, storyline and what have you. So much so that I am havin probs tryin to appreciate western movies. It is either that or no movies are up to standards for my likin so far.
Basically czero is abt this high school whr all the boys fight to rule the school. Fight as in literal brutal force. It got me thinking, if I were to be in a school like that, in a fight like that, how would I fight? Honestly, there is not hundred percent guarantee but considerin the fact that I think I do crazy thgs under the influence of this chemical called adrenaline, I’d hate to imagine. I guess I’d go crazy, like total wild whackfest. The more pain I get from the injuries I sustain in the fight (it is inevitable in a fight isit? We are no manga characters), the harder my punches will be and I’d totally make sure the ppl I hit suffer, sick I knoe. I can totally see myself losin all senses.. mayb I’d be less destructive whn I am younger, I rmb wrestling with my older cuz. Back then twas still the blind punches but now I’d prolly really make sure my punches hit home. Of cos all these are just hypothetic, cos I think my kicks are pretty weak in reality, esp my left leg but I cant my right shud do some decent damage with all that muscles. Hahaha!
Still, I kinda envy the feel in the whole movie. I mean your normal girls might just go, “I cant understand what they are fightin for?!” but I’d say they are fightin for a very noble cause. It is appropriate cos they are still young, they are carryin the hopes of their comrades and many other ppl whn they fight. It is not just your childish lets fight cos you stared at me, WTF?! It has a purpose, on the shoulders of the ‘men’ (tho they are only say, 18?) are the dreams of many others. It may be a burden but it is also a very strong drivin force. The closest I can think of in real life is team sports. As a capt, you carry with you the responsibilities, the dream, hope and the trust your team mates entrust upon you. You not only mark you own opponent, you make sure your team mates are copin, you rush up to take knocks for them (who says ppl play clean sports), alws be the first to save balls from getting beyond the court if twas in your possession. The whole chemistry of a TEAM. I cant say we lay our lives dwn for each other but our bodies at least. The injuries sustained, the fall, the blood, the scars are all evidence of our sacrifices. Many of these stay with us till we lay six feet under but they are sweet sacrifices, for the memories are not sth anyone can rob you of.
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dont do it, pls dont.. you knoe i wont voice it out. i wont say anythg cos i dont knoe how to put them into words and it just isnt me. i dont believe in forcin thgs of this aspect. forget abt the 'accomodatin', 'adjustin' or 'adaptin'. tried, tested and failed. i am anal, i only want the best. mayb thats why the previous ones have failed thus far..
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i dont knoe if my temper has improved or many thgs doesnt matter anymore.. i'd rather be left alone than to suit others. whn i dont flare, it doesnt mean i am fine with it, i just cannot be bothered to make thgs more troublesome.
mayb there is a reason why my counsellors have alws pointed out that i am too sarcastic and arrogant. i mean at least i am myself in front of them but the comments that return really arent too nice.. sometimes i just dont feel like bein too nice, more often than not, the result of bein nice is just bein taken for granted. it really isnt worth it, is it? if thats the case, i'd rather be feared and unapproachable..
Labels: many many thots
12:09 AM
Sunday, June 01, 2008
because evrybod's more interested in the cacoon than the caterpillar
Cold Storage Kids' Run:
camwhorin on the way to esplanade:
i am REALLY short! i had to tiptoe for all the pics or kster had to bend dwn. the difference is more than prominent in pic 4&5!
some artistic shots:
met up with b. hahaha! that badmood girl treated us to prawn mee and today i was the messy-eater =X sorrysorry. hehee! and i was beyond high, for some known reason and i cudnt stop laughin. i laugh so hard i was totally wobbly. hahaa! and b bein in her badmood, twas.. err.. b, sometimes bein at your hse whn you badmood's really bad. today, lucky i wasnt alone if not really sian. hahaa!
Labels: artistic, camwhore, classic alvinkang in good mood, kids' run
10:42 PM